Hide Your Love Away

18

I am so so so sorry for my hiatus, I will explain everything after this chapter.

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"Holy... Oh my god, Kurt!" Blaine threw himself at his boyfriend, unintentionally bouncing on the hospital bed, arms encasing him. "You scared me so much."

"That was beautiful, Blaine. You're beautiful. Speaking of which, why did you have to give him his shirt? I was enjoying that!" The Hummels and Carole laughed hysterically whilst Blaine hid his face in his hands and tucked his head between his knees, almost like he was trying to make himself into a little ball of Blaine. Kurt wrapped an arm around his boyfriend's shoulders and kissed him on the forehead, forcing Carole to coo over the pair.

Though he pretended to be mad, Blaine was smiling and chuckling to himself. Kurt had eventually found Blaine's lips and he didn't mind the eyes of his parents glued to him and his boyfriend.

Blaine pulled away.

"I love you so much, Kurt." Carole wrapped her arms around her husband as if to say 'I'm so proud of him; he's all grown up.'

"I love you too, Blaine. More than you'll ever know." Blaine's cheeks flushed.

Kurt went in for another kiss, but Blaine refused. Noticing his subtle glance towards his parents, Kurt gently cupped Blaine's chin with his thumb and forefinger and turned his head. Being forced to look into his boyfriend's eyes, which were his absolute Kryptonite, Blaine initiated this kiss, sending a shiver down Kurt's spine. He was just so relieved that they were safe. Neither boy knew what to do with themselves; all they knew was they just needed to be close and never let go again. Kurt grabbed the back of Blaine's neck and pulled it down, so that Blaine was lying on top of him, almost in a planking position, body barely skimming Kurt's, in his best attempt not to hurt him. All of the fear, all of the hurt they had both been put through, it was all over now. Now, they could just exist together.

"Wow... look at them go..." Carole remarked, well earning the pillow that Kurt had thrown her way, not separating, still. "Alright! We can take a hint!" She placed the pillow on a nearby chair.

Burt shuddered, averting his eyes to anywhere but the couple. "Getting uncomfortable, boys!"

"Hey dad," Kurt quipped, not taking his eyes off Blaine's for even a second, fearing that if he did, he would be ripped away from him again. "I had to watch them torture him." Blaine's face fell. His stomach twisted. He had tried to forget that bit. "I need this and I am not letting go. So you can either get out or pull up a chair."

Blaine didn't need to look at Burt to know he was livid. Kurt tried to pull Blaine in, but Blaine resisted, still not wanting to piss off Burt. He regretted what he had done because Kurt's response wasn't one to be typically preempted. In a sudden need for closeness, Kurt engulfed Blaine in his arms and pulled him down towards him. Kurt hissed, whilst Blaine let out a very shaky breath, as a new wave of pain ripped through them both. Although he wouldn't have admitted it to Kurt, Blaine was actually very thankful that he did that, as Blaine's body was in even more agony holding itself in the position prior. It was just this constant ache. But he hid it. He couldn't have Kurt worrying.

Blaine wondered if the axe that he would have driven through his skull later was worth it.

He realised that it was most definitely worth it, as his boyfriend placed slow, gentle, teasing kisses down his neck and over his face. Blaine giggled in response, outwardly pushing Kurt away, but inwardly willing him not to stop.

"Okay! That's it! Kurt, you've just woken up from being shot and we love you, Kurt. I don't think you understand how terrified we all were."

Kurt suddenly felt a wave of emotions overcoming him. He had barely been conscious just before his surgery. But it didn't stop him from picturing his last glances at his boyfriend, absolutely drenched in blood and bruises. Somehow, Kurt hadn't looked properly at his boyfriend's face until now. Or rather, he had looked, but he hadn't truly seen the damage. He had been too caught up in the relief of both of them escaping alive. It had been cleaned up, but the damage was very visible. Blaine had a deep gash across his cheek, one very black eye and some other bruising littered over his jawline. Kurt gasped, lightly fingering over the vandalisation of the other boy's skin.

"Oh, Blaine," he cried. Said boy hung his head. He couldn't help but feel so ugly. He had really shown Kurt his true colours over the past couple of weeks. And he was so broken. Not just physically, but mentally and emotionally, he was so scarred by his past and his father. Blaine just felt unlovable.

"Please don't hide from me, Blaine." Kurt lifted his boyfriend's head by his chin. "You don't need to hide anymore."

Honestly, they were both surprised at this. Blaine didn't have the time to have a mental panic about how much they were exposing themselves. And in front of Kurt's parents at that! He had so many feelings, he just didn't know what to do with himself. Blaine all but threw himself into Kurt's neck, breathing in that comforting strawberry and vanilla scent. He allowed himself to place light kisses down his boyfriend's neck. There wasn't anything sexual about it - the action was purely to get that closeness he was longing for.

"Alright! Fine! You win; we're leaving! We're going for coffee!" Burt shivered, trying to shake the mental image of his son defiling his boyfriend out of his head. Carole couldn't help but cackle at her childish husband.

"They're teenage boys, Burt. You remember being their age! They're in love."

"Oh lord. I don't wanna know."

As soon as they realised the footsteps had faded, Kurt and Blaine didn't feel the need to hold back anymore.

"I love you, Kurt."

"I love you too, Blaine."

"Well, isn't that sweet?" a sarcastic voice rang out.

The pair snapped their heads towards the voice ringing out by the door.

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I am so sorry for the delay guys. If you're having a bad head day, I would advise skipping my explanation, but because I feel like you guys deserve it, I'll let you know what went on. WARNING: it's a bit deep. 

I'm just gonna come out and say it. Shit went down in my household. I've had a hell of a few weeks. I've had more arguments with my mum than I can count. I walked out the house a few times. For those of you who don't know (probably most of you), I have anxiety and depression bad. And it is increased tenfold right now. Also I've been recently diagnosed with OCD which is... strange?

I actually ended up going to hospital a couple weeks ago because I hurt myself. Yeah I've never done that before. By the way, it's so gross and painful please never ever do it. I never used to understand why people did it. Until I just couldn't stop thinking about it. Just please guys i need you to promise me you won't do it. it doesn't help it just makes things worse. i am here. i am always here. don't shy away from help - get help. it's always there - always. 

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I also wanted to talk about Naya. I'm so heartbroken that she is gone. So heartbroken, as I'm sure many of you are. She may have had a few hiccups in life, but at least we know that she died a hero. 

There have been so many awful things happen to so many cast members and even a couple of crew members. It's unbelievable. But we will get past this. I will mourn Cory, and I will mourn Naya. 

I love you all

Stay safe.

Love, me.