Winning Hurricane

XV - Propofol

My smile fades. The music suddenly became blurry as his words rang out in my head repeatedly. We stopped swaying and his curved lips slowly turned into a serious line.

For how can two words messed up the magic building between us?

It felt like we're both in doomed. He didn't confess but what he said gave it off.. and I am afraid to ask.. I don't want to hear the answer.. for yes or no both sounds trouble at the moment. I am not ready. Damn! How can we be suddenly got so awkward after the past good hours?

Parang ang bilis..

Guard. I am such a big walking contradiction! Parang dati lang ayaw ko sa kanya tapos biglang hahanapin ko ang presensiya niya, maco confirm na crush ko siya tapos iiwas tapos lalong mapapalapit sa kanya tapos eto.. kapag may sinabe siya na biglang nagpapa bilis ng tibok ng puso ko aatras na naman ako.. ni hindi ko nga alam kung may laman talaga ang mga salita niya.. pero kasi ang mga tingin niya..

Bakit sobrang complicated ko? Kahit ako nahihirapan na din kung ano ba ang gusto kong mangyare o hindi..

Gusto kong mainis sa kanya! Ang ganda ganda na kasi nong gabi tapos babanat siya bigla ng ganon! Hindi ako sanay na may taong ganon ka-vocal sakin! Can't he take it slow?

Hindi naman siya confusing.. ako yong confusing.. pero hindi din ako sigurado sa kanya.. maybe sanay lang talaga siya sa mga babae and I am just assuming pero whatever it is.. I don't know if I can handle the next level..

"Chandy.."

The music shifted to upbeat again, it was so loud na parang sinadya para hindi kami magka-rinigan.. I barely hear his words.. my eyes flew down to his lips trying to understand what he was saying but it suddenly became tempting.. his moist pinkish lips are so inviting.. making me wonder what it felt like.. what it tastes like..

Bloody hell.. I am such a perv!

I cleared my throat as my eyes goes up to meet his gaze.. his eyes mirror panics and I barely hear him when someone grabbed my arm. Agad akong napalingon sa humawak sakin.

"Cy?!"

Cy leaned on me, shouting pero nahihirapan akong intindihin. He pulled my hand kaya napabitaw ako kay Hurricane. He gently dragged me hanggang makarating kami sa labas ng Usual.

"What?"

"Ansel's missing!"

"What?!"

Cyclone rubbed his hands against his face as worry attacked me. Tama ba ang dinig ko?

"Where did you last saw her?" Hurricane asked from my behind. Saka ko lang na-realize na sumunod pala siya sa amin palabas.

Mukhang may tama na si Cyclone.. baka naman nag-cr lang si Ansel?

"Sa mga comfort room?"

"She's nowhere! I swear, I told her to stay where she was seated after you two walked away.. I just grabbed a drink tapos wala na. I thought sumunod siya sa inyo then I saw the both of you sa dance floor and I can't find Ansel! Janella and the others were looking for her too pero wala.."

"CCTV?" Hurricane asked.

"We do check already. Someone called her and lumabas siya.. hanggang don lang siya naabot.."

We've been gone for almost an hour and a half.. oh my.. my first instinct was to call her but Cyclone only shake his head implying he already did call her but still..

When it just kept on ringing tinago ko na ang phone at nag-lakad papunta sa car ko. "She could be at the condo,"

"Should I call Tita?" Cy asked.