THE GODDESS' KRYPTONITE

CHAPTER 26: His Sworn Promise

To the love of my life,
     
       Tang-ina! Sorry na agad...huwag ka ng magalit. I just don't know how to start this fucking goodbye letter without cursing inside my head. Yung tang-ina kasi, miss na miss na kita kahit heto ka lang at natutulog sa tabi ko. Yung, fuck it, why we can't be together? Yung, damn that promise! Damn that agreement of ours. Why did I fucking agree to you for that Michigan thing. Ayoko umalis Carl! Gusto ko dito na lang ako, okay lang na masaktan ako araw-araw basta nakikita kita. If you can't love me back yet, okay lang. Pwede naman ako maghintay eh. I will stay by your side until the day you move on with Kara. Why do you need to send me there?
         Sorry na naman. Sorry for keep on bargaining. Sorry if I'm still hoping that you will let me stay. Na pwede tayong magkasama. Like what we had in the past three days. I know how hard it is for you. Thank you for your patience. Thank you for letting me create memories with you. You never fail to surprise me. You are really the master of surprises.
       Tang-ina! Ang sakit na ng dibdib ko Carl! I don't know why I am writing this and I don't know if you will read this paggising mo bukas. Sana din makaya mag-survive nitong natitirang roll ng tissue sa dami ng gusto kong sabihin.
        Ang gulo ng love letter ko noh? I cannot even organize and process all the emotions I have now. Yung isang roll ng tissue, naubos ko na kakaiyak ko. Pero ikaw...look at you...soundly sleeping. You looked relax. Alam ko kung bakit. Kasi, mababawasan na ang sakit sa ulo mo bukas. You already finished the three days date with Melissa Ava. May bonus pang isang araw. So, pano? Thank you. Thank you ng marami.
         Sige na...I'll end it here. Ubos na kasi yung tissue eh. Mahal na mahal kita Carl. Please move on quickly! Hihintayin kita. I will try to endure the days without you. Pero, hindi ko kayang mag-promise. Kapag na-miss kita, uuwi ako agad. And for that...sorry in advance.

P.S.
  Send the recorded sound clip ha! Sige na...balato mo na sa akin yun. I can't open your phone. Nakitawag na lang tuloy ako sa landline para masundo ako ni kuya. Sorry for leaving while you are still sleeping. Baka kasi, magbago pa ang isip ko. Baka hindi ako makaalis kapag ikaw pa naghatid sa akin pabalik ng Manila.

P.S. Ulit
I love you Carl, I love you so much. Miss you. I will miss you everyday. Ngayon palang miss na miss na kita.
                    
                                         Love,
                                        Carl's Queen
                                   (Kapal ko hahaha)

Carl is trembling while holding the tissue roll paper where Melissa wrote her letter. Kagabi lang ay magkasama silang natulog. They were both tired in exploring Atok, Benguet. He never had a chance to tell her. What he felt that
very moment. Sa tuwing kakausapin kasi niya ng seryoso ang dalaga, hindi ito nakikinig sa kanya. He tried it for a countless times, but random things always interrupt them. Gaya ng mga biglang lapit ng mga kagaya nilang turista. Mga babaeng nagpapansin kay Carl. Ang walang katapusang picture dito, picture doon ni Melissa. Laging wala sa timing, lagi na lang nauudlot ang pagtatapat niya.

He wanted to tell her not to leave. To stay with him until he completely heals. That Carl could not afford to be away from her. Na namimiss na niya si Missy kahit magkasama pa sila. Napakarami niyang gustong sabihin, pero wala ni isa siyang nasabi kay Melissa. Hindi niya inaasahan na paggsing niya, iyon ang mababasa niya. Ang sulat ng dalaga sa tirang rolled tissue.

"Shit!" Carl cursed as he grabbed his car key. He immediately run towards the door. Madaling araw pa lang, iihi lang sana siya nang makita ang sulat na iyon. Ramdam niya ang sakit ng ulo at pagkahilo sa biglang pagbangon. Pero mas nangingibabaw ang pagsikip at pagbigat ng dibdib niya.

"Fuck! Please answer it! Come on kuya Ace..." He tried to call Melissa's brother but he didn't respond. Sinubukan din niyang tawagan sina Kara at Drew pero wala ni isang sumagot sa kanila.