do you know who you are? | harry styles

23: crying

"harry! im back!" i called as i walked through the door. i'd gone out to buy some baking supplies. harry wasn't in the living room watching tv or reading. he wasn't in our room meditating. i heard quiet sobs from the bathroom. i tried opening the door but it was locked.
"harry? are you okay?" i asked.
"um...yeah" he sniffled.
"do you want me to give you some space?" i asked. "or we can talk. that helps. right?"

the door unlocked and harry came out. his eyes were red but he was still crying:
"whats wrong?" i pondered, making him sit on the bed.
"m-my friend...committed suicide"
"which one?" i asked.
"which one!? fucking archie!" he snapped.i jumped slightly. he realised what he did and cried harder. "im sorry"

"its okay. but im so sorry harry. i know how important she is to you"
"why do bad things always happen to me?"
"what do you mean?"
"so many bad things happen to me a-and i dont know why" he started sobbing really hard. i sat on his lap and wrapped my arms around him and let him cry into my arms.
"how do i get over it?" he looked up at me, his green eyes gazing into mine.
"you...you just...learn to cope with it" i admitted.

it was heartbreaking to see harry so upset. i'd never actually seen him cry. he cried at the london show but i wasnt up close. today i could visibly see the tears. usually it was him comforting me. but today it was different.
"harry, listen to me" i wiped his tears away with my thumbs and cupped his face with my hands. "you'll get through this. it's all going to be okay" i said to him.
"you really think so?"
i nodded. "Of course"