"Anxiety's like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but it doesn't get you very far."
-Jodi Picoult
The Meet
I know it isn't a choice, however, I also know that I can be very persuasive. I am not suggesting that I use my anxiety to my advantage, because that would be utterly false. However, I do use my persuasion to aid in gaining resources.
"Do I have to go? I'm scared. It's bad enough to talk to people that I know, but I can't meet new people, not now" I announce
Emelia places her hand on top of mine, squeezing it tightly.
"I wish you didn't have to, Kels. But listen, Anna-Elle will be there, and I promise I won't leave your side. Plus, I'm sure your adoptive family will be nice" she smiles "I heard they choose only the nicest ones for you guys"
"I know, it's not that" I reply
"I know Kelsey"
"Promise you'll stay with me?" I beg
"I promise" she rakes her hands through my curls.
It was ironic that I had asked, knowing the answer. I knew she would promise, however, I also knew that she could not keep her promise. So I wonder why it made me feel slightly better, hearing her say those words.
"What time is it?" I ask
"Five minutes, I have to go let the other girls know."
I nod, I know that I had to go to this meeting.
I also know that Emelia will not stay with me
No matter what she says.
No matter how many times she promises.
She has a job.
I have to make things work.
This is my problem.
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I remember the way the class ran, the teacher barely taking charge. Slurs were uttered throughout the room as she sat at her desk and worked on her computer. I flinched as people shouted terrible words to each other
"You're such a fag" one had said
"Well you're just a fucking woman, and you belong in the kitchen" Someone else shouted.
I had turned away, embarrassed at the conversation, and frankly, ashamed that the teacher wasn't taking any action.
"Guys, you know Kelsey has two dyke moms"
I remember the way the words sounded, I had wondered how they tasted in the boy's mouth
I wondered at the time, and still do, why the teacher never intervened.
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"I can't breathe," I say as I place my hand over my chest, feeling the way my heart was beating.
I had been dreading this day since I heard about it, yet, now that it was here, it was simply like any other day. Almost every day, I become anxious over something, and today is no different. Obviously, I would have preferred if this event was not set to take place, but I know another equally anxiety-inducing activity would simply take its place.
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When fight takes flight
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