A Little Ghost Help

~7~

I have been obsessed with this new song recently and it just really touches me. I haven't physically been able to cry all year... Which is really dumb in my opinion, but my body doesn't care. Anyway this song was the closest song to ever make me cry. I implore you to just listen to the words. Watch the animatic too if you want, it's amazing, but it doesn't fit the secret message I got from it. I'm not sure if it's the main secret message or something I just made up... But I fell in love with it so... Enjoy the song, then come back to the book and watch me torture... I mean... Treat Patton with the "love and kindness" he deserves! (I'll do it eventually.... probably...)

Patton pov
I thanked the stars above for making the bell ring. I guess you could say, I was saved by the bell… wait… my fatherly sense is going off… DID ONE OF MY CHILDREN THINK A PUN?!?!?! I'm so proud! Who… ah! Virgil has one of those 'I did a pun' faces! I stared at him, making sure he knew that I knew that he had internally made a pun. I love my strange dark son! I would run up and hug him… but… well, my leg hurts so bad right now. I should have taken an ibuprofen or something before school, but no. I just rushed to school without any breakfast or medicine! Of course I remember to wrap my wounds, but I don't give myself anything for the pain! It's fine. I probably deserve to suffer anyhow. I've never been good enough.

But I had also forgotten breakfast, which would normally be fine. Lunch was usually the only really good meal I eat anyway. I sometimes eat the dinner I make and usually grab a granola bar for breakfast, but I got extra lunch today because, well… I haven't eaten in twenty four hours. I know, I know, I'm weak for not being able to go longer. But my leg was killing me! So I'm giving myself this. I go to work, so I pay for my own lunch and everything so… that also goes into me deserving this? I don't have work after school today, thank goodness. It would have been miserable and my friends are going to meet me at the Davis' place. I can't wait!

Thankfully, my story got more believable each time I told it. I got really nervous when Remy came up though. I am pretty sure the other guys suspect something's off if they haven't already. They just… they can't know. It would break them. They shouldn't have to deal with that. I can do this alone.

Hobbling, I made the slow journey to my house. I left my satchel by the window, so I should be able to grab it. My parents already know that I'm gonna be gone until six. This time, I won't be late. 

I finally get back to my house and sneak around to the back. Leaning against my crutch, I slide open the window. I reach in, feeling for the handle on my bag. Where is it? I lean forward to try to grab it, head against the glass. Yes! My fingers find the bag and I snach it in a quick movement, but my crutch flies out from under me as I grab it. Stifling a scream, I start plummeting down. My head bangs into the windowsill as I fall. Ow!! I felt tears streak down my face. Weak. Useless. Mistake. Get up! Clenching my teeth, I grip my crutch and stand up. Stop being so pathetic! My muscles trembled and ached as I pushed them off the ground. I am meeting my friends. I have to hurry. Hurry up! Gosh I'm so pathetic!

I quickly drop my backpack into my room and make my way to the Davis house. "Ow. Ow. Ow. Ow." I whisper under my breath with each step. Weak. Useless. Mistake. Why can't I be good enough? Why can't I just do as I'm told? Why can't I be perfect like everybody else? You don't see anyone else going around with scars or crutches. They are good enough. I… I'm not. I deserve these. But why can't I be good enough? I swear I try! I try with all of my being to be good enough for people! I reach my unoccupied hand up to my head and feel the growing bump. Great. Just great.

I'm surprised to see that no one has made it to the meeting spot yet. I wonder if they texted. I looked down at my phone to see that I missed a single text.

Logic📘👔: I am sorry Patton, but Virgil, Roman and I cannot join you at the Davis house today because we have all found ourselves in detention. Please do not text any of us at this time, for it would result in our phones being taken away. We hope we can reschedule for a better date. We will message you as soon as we get out.