A Pinch of Cinnamon

Locking it down

Nick's POV

I could feel her moving around, shifting out of bed quietly, trying not to wake me. No doubt going to do chores since she feels guilty.

I remained still as I felt her come close to me. I'm curious to see what she does when she thinks I'm asleep.

Her body heat warmed my side as she leaned over. My breath almost hitched to give away the fact that I was awake, when I felt her hand caress my face and her soft lips graze mine. Just a light, sweet kiss but her lips lingered over mine.

Jesus.

It took everything in me not to grab her neck and keep her lips pressed against mine. I wanted to be wrapped up in her for eternity.

I am over the moon that she is initiating things with me. A relationship can't be one sided. I knew her past would make trusting me a bit difficult, but I was absolutely shocked when she kissed me first.

I thought for sure I'd be the one doing it. I had been thinking of the best way for days, wanting to feel those luscious lips; to taste her. I was going mad stressing about how to do it without running her off. I wonder how she'll take me wanting to move in.

The thought of her past is still reeling through me. I'm angry, hurt for her, and just pissed someone so sweet and caring can go through so much shit in just a few years. She lost her parents, her best friend, and her young adult years.

Plus, a boyfriend but who cares about only himself.

She's better off. I just wish she didn't have to go through that. I wish now more than ever I had met her first or come home a few years ago for holidays and visits. Maybe I could have met her and realized sooner my ex wasn't right for me.

The longer I think about things the angrier at myself I become. Hindsight is 20/20, I guess. I want to replace both our shitty memories with new ones. Ones with her and Jayden. I want them so badly my whole-body aches with need. I feel like my soul calls to them. It almost feels like they were designed specifically for me.

It kills me every time I leave for the night. I just want to go upstairs and wrap Spencer in my arms and drift off to sleep. I'm not sure how I can go home alone now that I know how amazing she feels wrapped around me.

My phone chirps beside me.

Annoying sister- 😶😬👍

Me-what?

Annoying sister- you need to lock that shit down....how's she doing?

Me- how did you even know I was with her?!

Annoying sister- A little birdie called our mother. She said she was watching Jay and was worried about Spencer. She said you've taken quite the shine to both of them....... 😏

Me- 🙄 shut it.

Annoying sister- Bro I love you, but if you fucking hurt her, I will come down there and make your life hell!

Me- noted. I wouldn't dream of hurting her.

Annoying sister- just please make her happy. She's gone through so much and she doesn't have many people there for her. She's been alone too long.

Me- I know. Trust me, she won't be alone much longer.

Annoying sister- 👏👏👏😁. Well hurry up and make me an auntie soon!

Me- omg.... Goodbye!!!

I put my phone in my pocket, shaking my head at my sister. She already wants us popping out babies and we aren't even officially together. I head downstairs, knowing Spencer is probably in the barn.