Jason's Christmas present

5

Jason seemed nervous about something, I asked him about it,but he didn't admit having a problem.
Jason what's wrong?
Nothing,he replied, I didn't buy it.
Jason I'm your girlfriend you can tell me.
I thought I heard you say that you loved me...
Was I talking in my sleep again?
He nodded his head, well I was dreaming about us.

So yes I did say that, I said lightly kissing his forehead.
He reached up and stroked my face, while putting a loose hair behind my ear.
Why?
Do I need a reason Jason?
No I guess not,I just don't understand how somebody....
How somebody as beautiful as you could ever love me.
Jason don't listen to the demons in your head.
How did you kno....?
Because I have the same problem, it's really bad memories, that keep playing in my head on repeat.
These memories disguise themselves as demons.
It's part of my mental problems it's called schizophrenia/ Bipolar.
It's a Chemical imbalance in the brain, treated by counseling and the right meds.
I watched for his reaction and he just looked back at me.
Jason.. ?
Hmmm?
What's going through your mind right now?
Well.....
Well what?
Was I any good, since it was my first time?
Yes your were fantastic how did you know what to do?
Observing my victims, I never in a million years would have dreamt of doing it.
Well there's a first time for everything.
How did you...?
Um I done it before....
Oh?!
Yeah when I was 16..
Oh?
He dropped his hand back to his side.
Jason are you upset at me now?
No?
Ok are you sure?
Yes.
But.. drop it!
Ok sorry...
I wished you were my first, I said sitting up.
He didn't reach for me, it made me sad that he didn't.
I got up and threw on some sweats.
I felt his eyes follow my every movement.
I smiled over my shoulder at him before leaving his bedroom.