Withering petals of my hurting heart

Pain

I am reeling back astonished

At what I've done and what I've become

An empty person, an empty shell

Empty of all human

Oh God, save me from myself

I am the demon and I am the monster

An awful disgrace and a cheater

When did I become so evil?

I am terrified of my own reflection

Having no direction

Of how to navigate in this

Dark oblivion

I pity myself

I hate myself

I don't want to be here

I wish I could just disappear.