Withering petals of my hurting heart

September

Sometimes I remember the cool breeze

That whispered in my ears

On a September's dusk

I remember the golden leaves

That danced with the motion of the tall trees

I remember that scene

With intensity unseen

I love autumns and sometimes I wish

That I could still feel the glee

I try hard to feel the happiness

That is etched so deep in my mind

But the emotion feels foreign

And unwittingly I resign

I remember myself

Standing and reveling at the sheer beauty

The nature was forever shining

But this time it was forlorn and crying

I do not know why

But the emptiness comforted me

The barren trees with branches swaying

Decreased my agony

In that month

I always felt loved

It was like I was never alone

In this cruel world

It was wrong to take comfort

When the nature was bereft

But I loved it with every piece

Inside me that was left

I still love it

Do not doubt that

But now I find consolation there

Instead of uninhibited exuberance

My eyes still close in September

In pain instead of pleasure

A teardrop still slips away

In misery instead of bliss

As I remember

I sit in heaven

When my insides are in hell

I am becoming a contradiction

Losing the battle within

I am stuck dwelling in myself

Confined to those broken remains

When there is still tons left to be explored

And I should be wandering.