Today marks the beginning of a new year
A new beginning
A new atmosphere
Maybe the stars are twinkling extra bright
In hopes of bringing light to this darkness of past
To give new hope to lost hearts
To make them see how
There is always a beginning after an end
How sometimes all you need is a deep breath
But
Today some hearts are extra gloomy
Their skin crawling from
The never-ending pretending
"Hey, happy new year "
The words tasting bitter and ignorant
Of the diminishing light from their eyes
Of the sound of their broken heart
Of the darkness of their uncontrollable mind
Of the pain of the lost child
I want to scream
Scream so loud that my voice reaches every ear that made me feel unheard
Every heart that made me feel broken
Every mouth that spoke words of poison
But nothing is coming out
Cause maybe I do not have anyone to blame
It's me who did this to myself
So, I scream, I sob, I fight, I go numb
All within myself
No one is ever there to stop me
Or to hold me
Or to tell me, "Hey, it's okay. I am here "
Or to make me feel less lonely
Cause nobody knows
The struggles I face
The tears I stop from falling
The scars that I stop from bleeding
The pain that I stop from showing
I don't want to be a freak in their eyes
The drama queen fishing for a slice
All I want is to be someone
Just like everyone else
Can't I have that,
Without feeling like a crazy sociopath?
YOU ARE READING
Withering petals of my hurting heart
PoetryA collection of poems that I wrote when my whole existence felt like a joke and I felt shackled by my own demons.
