Walking on the same old roads again
How does it feel when?
Things that broke you before
Leaves you barren again
I try to walk away
From all these thoughts
Of recurring self-hate
But something so consistent
Can't be shattered in a day
I ask myself, a question lame
Why do you even bother to breathe?
When all you are is a waste of space
Why do you stand in front of the mirror?
Just to see your ugly self
Why do you work so hard?
When nothing you ever do is great
Why do you continue smiling?
Even through all the pain
But there is no answer
For I couldn't decipher my reason to stay
While my mind thrums violently
With millions of reasons to leave
Unsettled and chaotic
I am in a dark abyss
Where my heart sits in silence
And my mind plays the game
It spreads like plague
Rotting away my joy
The self-deprecating thoughts
Forever on a mission to destroy
Every single reason to survive
In a world where nothing ever feels right
I paint my skin red
To a point where
The scars on my body
Matches the ones you see when my soul is bare
But it's not enough anymore
To fill this hole
It constantly aches for more
More for pain and more for sorrow
And I am just trying my best
To fulfill the needs
Of this hungry beast
In order to achieve some semblance of peace.
ESTÁS LEYENDO
Withering petals of my hurting heart
PoesíaA collection of poems that I wrote when my whole existence felt like a joke and I felt shackled by my own demons.