Secret in the Heart ||Descendants|| (♡Ben)

23

When I am back at the hideout it's already starting to get dark outside. I put the box full of books and parchment down on the table and put my backpack on the ground. I take off my jacket and throw it on the couch. I sigh as I stand in front of the table. Here we go. I grab a roll of parchment from the box and roll it open. I look at it and frown. It's a map, but I am not sure of what. Travel to the wooden gallows on the island. I hear Hades' voice. The island. Is this the island that my father meant? I grab another roll of parchment out of the box and look at it. This is also a map. Dang it. For all I know, every single one of these rolls is a map and if I don't know from what they are then I will be nowhere. Even if I do know from what they are I would still be nowhere because I don't know what the island is. I let out a frustrated sigh.
    "At least I don't see a picture of me with darts in it." a very familiar voice says. I turn around. "Ben?" I say as I look at him. He looks very different from what he normally looks like. He isn't wearing a suit like he normally does. He is wearing dark blue leather pants and a blue leather jacket. He is also wearing a beanie and dark blue fingerless gloves. I sigh and he walks towards me. I put up my hand and he stops. "Kara, I'm so sorry about our fight." he says and he looks me in my eyes. "It was all my fault, I..." he stammers and looks down. "Please come home." he says as he looks up at me and extends his hand. I look at his hand and see that he is holding out his ring. I walk towards him. "Ben. I am home." I say. His bottom lip trembles and he looks away from me, obviously hurt. "I brought the limo." he says as he looks back at me. "It's a sweet ride." he says with a small smile. "I don't fit in, Ben. I really gave it my best shot. And if you think that I could change, I think you're wrong." I say. "Then, I'll change." he argues with a smile. "I'll skip school, have more fun. You know, I'll blow off some more responsibilities." he says. "No, no. See, I'm such a terrible influence." I say. "It's only a matter of time before I do something so messed up that not only does the kingdom turn on me, but they turn on you." I say. "Don't quit us, Kara." he says as he takes a step towards me. He grabs my hand and places the ring in my palm it. "The people love you." he says and I sigh. "I love you." Ben says as his voice breaks. A pang shoots through my heart. I hate seeing Ben so sad. "Don't you love me?" he asks. I look at the ring in my palm and grab it with my other hands. I smile at the memories that flow through my head.
"It almost feels like it was just a dream
All these memories of you and me
Blown away in the summer breeze
It almost feels like we just never were all this time we spent was just a blur
Now it's just me and a melody
So what am I supposed to do
'Cause all these plans we made in the sand are through" I start to sing as memory after memory comes to me. The song he sang for me after I gave him that cookie. I mean no he wasn't actually in love with me when he sang the song but it was so romantic. And then after that when he took me on a date and we rode the scooter towards the place. I remember being so frightened to get onto that thing and now he gave me one and I am able to ride it without any fear. That was my first date. It was such a beautiful setting and those grapes were amazing. I couldn't believe we didn't have them on the Isle. And then after that, he went for a swim and I was so worried that I jumped in to find him even tho I couldn't swim. I still can't believe I did that. And then when I found out in our carriage ride towards the castle that he hadn't been under the spell since the date something warm rushed through me. I had liked the fact that he didn't pretend that he loved me. And now I know that feeling was because I liked him. Still like him in fact. But I just can't do this. I can't destroy his life. I mean if I continue to be this Lady of the Court I will one day eventually break and then the whole kingdom will turn on us. Turn on him for being with a villain. And then the whole of Auradon will fall apart and I just can't do that to him.
"Without you I'm on my own Am I'm gonna be alone
And if it's only me, myself and I will I be fine?
So far from home and I just don't know am I gonna make it" Ben sings and he takes a step towards me and extends his hands. He grabs one of my hands and places his ring in it and closes my fingers around the ring.
"Brave enough to take this road
Out on my own" I sing and turn my back towards him. So this is the best option. Besides if I just separate myself from him I can use the time to find my father's dagger and find out what happened to him. Ben places his hand on my shoulder and turns me back to face him. "Kara-" he starts.
"And maybe I'm falling on my face
Or maybe I'm landing in my place
And maybe we're a million miles apart
Or maybe we're standing heart to heart
But no matter what I'm walking right off this stage
And never looking back looking back to yesterday
No, way
No, way...
I'm on my own!
As long as I got me, myself and I, I'm doing fine" I sing swatting his hand from my shoulder. I am determined. I am not going to let myself ruin his life. I just can't do that. If only he could understand that all I want is the best for him, then he would realize that this was the best idea too.
"So far from home" Ben sings and he looks at me with tears in his eyes.
"But now I know that I am gonna make it brave enough to take this road
Out on my own" I sing as I look back at the ring in my hand. Then I look up at Ben. I turn his hand upwards and place the ring in his palm and close his fingers around it. "I have to take myself out of the picture," I say as my eyes start to fill with tears. "Because it's what's best for you, and it's what's best for Auradon." I say. "Kara, no, please." he says as he takes another step forwards. I take a step back and put my hands on his chest stopping him. "Ben...I can't do this." I say and turn around and walk towards the table. I put my hands on the table and lean on them. "You should go, Ben." I say as I look over my shoulder at him. He just stands there and doesn't move. "Ben, please go. Please leave." I say afraid that if he stands there a moment longer that I will give in and go with him. He takes a few steps backward. He looks me in my eyes once again and then turns around and walks away. I wipe away a tear that escaped my eyes and turn back towards the maps.