its not like i like you

wish i were heather

Third person POV

"so what do you have to say?" catra asks as they both walk out into the warm summer night

"I think I... like you, no- that's wrong I think I love you catra!" scorpia suddenly blurts out

catras eyes widen, she was sure she must have heard her wrong, yeah probably the alcohol she thought to herself though she turns to scorpia for confirmation whos looking nervous as ever.

"what was that?" she asks again staring directly at her

"catra- I'm saying I love you"

"what?" catra blushes furiously at the straightforward scorpia

"you're kidding right? this is a joke?" asks the brunette

"why would I be joking?"

"so that time... when you said you liked someone.. it was me?" catra says pointing to herself

"yes.." she replies looking away from catra

few seconds of painful silence pass

"catra look- we're perfect for each other, I mean we get along, I'm good to you and you're good to me, don't you like me too?"

catra stood in silence. She knew scorpia was right, they would make a perfect couple, scorpia was kind to her and it's not like catras never thought about kissing her before, they were perfect.

she could kiss scorpia right now and they would date, get married and whatnot but she knew she would be lying about her feelings, she could never feel for scorpia that way.

why you ask?

two answers, the first being she only thought of her as a friend, the second however was because of:

adora

this wall of feelings for her would be hard to get over, she knew that even if adora and her could never work, she would rather try than ignore it.

"scorpia listen to me" catra says clenching her fist in frustration

"I- I don't feel the same" little tears form in her eyes

"wha- what? but we're so close! and we- we- literally do everything together! I was sort of sure you at least liked me a little bit I-" scorpias voice was breaking, words becoming hard to form, tears pouring out

"I can only see you as a friend, I'm sorry" she says lowering her head

"but I tried so hard to get you to like me.. I put in so much effort and-" scorpia looks up for a second which surprises catra

"wait- I know what this is, it's adora isn't it?"

catra stood in silence which was enough said to know she was right

"why?! you haven't even known her for a year, girls like her will just use and hurt you catra, I understand you, we can be happy" she says grabbing her shoulders

catra was reminded of her walking in to mermista and adora a few hours ago, the girl now felt anxious, what if she's right? catra thought.

she sighs, still, they could never be.

"I can't help my feelings, im sorry" she hugs scorpia though she doesn't do the same

"oh, I see" scorpia couldn't seem to feel anything right now, she didn't know it would become like this

"I'm going back in" she pulled away from catras arms

"but before I do" her hand lands a slap on catras face making her fall to the ground

"why did it have to be her?! why won't you just love me.." she says before turning and leaving the girl alone on the floor

catra was dumbfounded, she didn't even seem to care about the stinging pain on her cheek.

what the fuck just happened?

she stays lying on the cool floor, though she was burning up, it was all exhausting.

"catra? catra?! is that you?" a voice called out

an angel? catra thought

"catra what are you doing here!"

oh, it's adora

adora looks down at catra, now I'm starting to hallucinate? what was in that alcohol-

"hey adora, tell me"

"hm?"

"why does it have to be you?" hoping the hallucination would answer

"catra? what are you talking about get up!" catra switches back to reality as her arm is pulled and is stood up

"wha?- adora what are you doing down here?!" catra asks as she blushes from embarrassment

"trying to find you and scorpia!"

"scorpia went back already" she says looking away from her

"well then let's go! frostas calling us to watch the fireworks" adora grabs catras hand and intertwines it with hers, her hand cold which seemed to cool catras body down and relax her.

she watches the girl leading her, noticing her back and her muscles, pretty she thought. She takes a good look at the dress, she saw it before but for some reason she couldn't help be stunned at the sight as well as her hair tied up with her little poof, cute.

she then glances at her soft hands, what was this feeling?

sorry scorpia, I'm being selfish but even if I'm the one hurt in the end, at least let me remember this feeling forever.