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Q47: What is it like to commit murder?

by: Vernie Seidel

I wasn't going to answer this. However, I feel I owe it to those who have supported me. I also want to explain to others that I just did not kill someone out of revenge or hate. I am hoping this will give a better picture to everyone

My 14-year-old brother was being abused by a 22-year-old distant relative. This was every abuse including threats of death by shooting.

I told my parents; they did not believe me. I told a retired cop friend. He just turned around and told my parents. I was out of options.

So, during deer season, I looked for him. I finally found him and walked up to him with tears in my eyes and asked him why he wanted to hurt my brother. He asked why I was crying like a baby. He laughed and asked if it was because my parents didn't believe me. He then told me that my parents told him, which I already knew.

Then, with a chuckle, he said that maybe he should come down from the deer stand and give me the same treatment. I told him he would never hurt my brother again and raised my gun and shot.

I dropped the gun and fell to my knees and cried and cried. It got to where I couldn't cry. It was getting dark so I finally got up and staggered home.

That was what it was like for me. I never want to go through that again.