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Q93: Can I just rest for once without being sexualized??

r/UnregulatedComplaints | by: u/smolexfundie

(Idk if this is actually gonna be nsfw, but i know I'm going to mention sex) I am postpartum and fcking exhausted. Our baby does not sleep or nap unless someone is holding them (read: me.) I'm so fcking tired I could drop, but I can't because I'm primary parent to our newborn and toddler. My sex drive is at zero. I'm tired, in pain, constantly holding a baby, and still doing all housework, and I mean 100% ALL. I'm up all night with baby, and on all day for both kids and our dog. My partner works, and when he gets home he has to do schoolwork. I don't mind that. But once he's done, he'll start nagging for sexual favors "jokingly." He is always horny. Doesn't matter if we had sex the other day, or in the past five minutes, he's ready again. Normally that's fine for us, but not now when I am just trying to feel human again and am running on no sleep. My zero sex drive is not helped by the fact that he will continually ask "wanna give me head?" like a fcking toddler. No, I don't want to give you fucking head again after I could barely hold my head up to do it last night. -After I asked you to change one single diaper so I could take a piss, and you said fucking "No" like it was a joke(still didn't change it tho) -Or after you offered to do one night feeding, but when the time came you were "tired and couldn't get baby to drink it," so I ended up feeding baby the bottle you prepared. -After I set up milk so I could take an edible to ease my pp pain, and you could feed baby for me, except you also decided to get high without warning me, and left me to feed baby in my paranoid state. -or when I asked for a foot rub and you just commented that my feet were dirty. -can't ask for a back rub either because you will try to turn it into sex. I am trying to stay alive and sleep just enough so that I can keep everything in order. When I'm in bed after struggling to get baby to sleep for hours, I just want to sleep, instead of having my butt grabbed and the very unsexy "wanna give me head?" demanded of me every five goddamn minutes. I just want to be left alone. I literally don't give a fuck if he watches porn and jacks off, I just want to sleep enough that my head doesn't fucking hurt and my eyes stop feeling like sandpaper. I broke down a few days ago and cried on the floor about how exhausted I am and how I'm sorry, but I have no sex drive right now and just need sleep...and he STILL started up that shit again. Saying no over and over is wearing me down and emotionally draining me. It's making me dread when he gets home, and making me resentful. I love him, but I'm so tired and i just wish he'd get some fucking sense in his head to just shut up for a few more weeks so I can recover. I'd also like the chance to get on birth control so I can actually relax when we have sex. Because of-fucking-course it's all up to me since condoms are ooh so difficult and don't feel good enough. I'm just tired and struggling and need to vent to the void. Thanks.