A Love Which Was Never Meant To Be

CH 23:THE RETURN

I asked Yuan who that girl was before I made my own perception and got into a misunderstanding again. He was hiding something from me. And that could be noticed by his eyes which didn't even dared to look into my eyes for more than 5 seconds and that to directly.

The he spoke stumbling "She... She... She is my...my........." I was extremely irritated. I asked with anger again "Who is she!?" Then after all he gave me a straight forward answer that too looking directly in my eyes for more than 5 seconds. He repeated it two times. "She is my fiance. Yes! She is my fiance." Why did he even said something like that? Was my love not enough for him? Did I lacked to give him something? Was I too demanding? Or did he thought I was both a liability and a burden on him? I asked him all my questions and the answer that I got was a simple 'no'. So I asked"Then why? Then why is she your fiance and not me. Why didn't you tried even once? Don't you love me? Why did you asked me to live when you never had the plan of going any longer with me? Why did you became my boyfriend? Why did you do this to me even after knowing that I was living for you? Do you wanted me to suffer?" And the answer I got was "Yes! I wanted you to suffer. I wanted to make you go through what my friend Tiyane went through. I wanted to make you feel that when you were in his state, his shoes. I wanted to get a revenge for my best friend because I knew that he won't be able to take it due to his nature. I wanted to make you realize that you are nothing for me instead of a bitch* who dumped my bro. Also I would have never returned back to this place if my belongings weren't here. And also I will be returning tomorrow. And I would have never took your slap if you weren't a sick retard. This is who I really am. You made me go crazy. The patience which I showed you isn't the real me. It was just for the sake of my bro that I kept acting." I looked at Mindy and Tiyane who weren't willing to meet their eyes to mine. So this was all planned. They all planned it. They wanted me to live this fu***n' life where I have no one left. They could have at least pitied me a bit. I raged inside the room collected all Yuan's stuff in my hands and then threw it on him. I was crying. My eyes were red with anger and pain. Then I said "Thank you Yuan! You are not worthy of my love. Also I am not the kind of girl who will curse you, but I do hope that some day you realize that what you have done could be right, but the person with whom you did it wasn't right darling. I hope you live well with this wicked witch standing beside you hiding her true self. And also do keep in mind that no one can ever love you like me. So better be careful of this world. It isn't trustworthy." Then I slammed the door hard in his face and thumped my had against the door. I could hear him thumping at the door and cursing me. How could he do this. This all felt so real. The feelings, the moments and the time which I spent with and on him weren't worth him as he was playing back-foot. He killed me with his dagger. Great now it is proved that I am alone in this big world. Even the person who was earlier alone himself left me whom I supported in his dark times. But I didn't expected anything from him. It was just Yuan and Mindy Who broke my heart. I was left there by the door all alone with just the tears abandoned by my eyes. I went to the doctor who cured my cancer. All the way I was running. Running away from things which I feared to become true. Things which I knew were true but considered as either a bad dream or nightmare.

I was all worked up and was puffing hard till I reached the doctor. Then I barged in the door and told him to give me my cancer back so that I could die.

The doctor asked me to calm down and tell her what the problem was. I told her everything that happened and kept crying until I was all sober. I asked doctor if she would like to drink alcohol with me and took her out.

We went to a small shop on the road and asked for alcohol. The shopkeeper asked me the money and asked if I would like something else. I drank a lot until all my senses were lost. Then I started narrating my story to everyone. I told everyone how miserable my life had been since the starting itself. I told them how I had no friends no mother, no father and my only sister who died having blood cancer. I told them how hard it was for me to go through all these things alone. I told them how painful, overwhelming and unbearable my first heartbreak was. I told them how many efforts I invested just for a single friend who turned out to be a traitor. I told them how I sacrificed my second love for the same traitor. I told them how my third love turned out to be fake and how all the things which I spent it with him were planned. I told them how painful my life had been with these disasters.