Addicted to You

The Killer

Spencer was sitting on the couch reading a book while you were in the kitchen making some popcorn. Once you had finished up cleaning up you grabbed the popcorn bowl and set it on the table in front of Spencer. You snatched his book away and set it to the side.

He quickly looked up at you confused "Hey!"

You smiled and slowly sat on his lap straddling him. You wrapped your arms around him and buried your face into the crook of his neck. His hands slowly traveled up and down your back, settling on your hips, holding you closer "What's this for"

"I just wanted a hug" you mumbled

"I love you" he whispered into your ear

"I love you too" you smiled and held him even tighter

"Do you want kids?"

"What"

"We only ever talked about it once but I don't know I feel like we are nearing that time"

"You want a baby right now?" you lifted yourself up and loosened your grip to face him

"Not right now" he pondered for a second "But eventually, do you?"

"I-I uh" you lifted yourself off of him and sat beside him

"You don't want kids?" he turned to face you and raised his brow, with the following words you were about to say you were scared of disappointing him or pushing him away. You knew that he wanted to be a dad and didn't want to ruin that dream

"I do but uh... I should have told you this sooner" you took a deep breath in "Wh-when I was in New York I had a boyfriend and one day I thought that I was pregnant" Spencer intertwined his hand with yours "I prayed that I wasn't pregnant because I really did not want to have a baby with that guy plus I wasn't ready. I went to the doctor and my prayers were answered, I found out I wasn't pregnant" you cleared your throat and held back the tears in the rims of your eyes "Instead I found out that I can't have kids at all"

"Y/n" he whispered and brought your hand up to his lips and laid a gentle kiss

"At first I didn't really care but now..." you swallowed back the lump in your throat and sighed "I'm sorry"

"Why would you be sorry" Spencer kissed your cheek

"You clearly want to be a dad and I can't give you that" your voice cracked and a tear slipped down your cheek "You're probably rethinking your decision of marrying me" you choked out a broken laugh

"Hey, nothing could ever make me regret marrying you. I love you and having a kid was just an idea. Nothing could ever make me love you any less, you don't need to give me children in order to prove your love to me or make me happy. I am perfectly happy with just us two" he kissed your lips and gave you a loving look, his eyes said it all. He was telling the truth and you loved him even more, he loved you and all your flaws

"What do you think about adoption" you smiled as he wiped away your tears

"Are you sure?" he sat up and his eyes lit up

"I never said that I didn't want to be a mom, I just can't conceive babies" you squeezed his hand and smiled "Let's adopt a tiny human"