"I need to go back to America, Beb," he said and held my hand, caressing it like we were scared of what would happen next if we went back.
"W-why?" hindi ako makapagsalita ng maayos dahil sa bilis ng tibok ng aking puso at parang biglang may bumara sa aking lalamunan, at hindi ko magawang magsalita ng maayos.
"Dad said he's going to train me handling his company because he's retiring next two months and as his son, I should be the one to handle it.. Beb this is the first time my Dad ask me to go home and he said he wanted to be with me" bakas ang saya ng bangitin niya ang sinabi ng amang gusto siyang makasama nito dahil alam kong sabik na sabik si Gun sa kanyang ama simula bata pa kami.
Dahil lumaki siyang kasama ang si Tita Celia at kahit nasa america sila noon, ay madalang umuwi ang kanyang ama dahil sa negosyo nito.
Gun once said that if he was given an opportunity to stay with his Dad he will do it without any doubt because that was his dream. He became the best version of him, for his Dad to notice it and call him.
And now everything is happening now...
I can't ruin his dream, ngumiti ako at hinawakan ang kanyang pisngi, "I'm proud of you" I said before I lean closer and kiss his cheeks.
I hugged him and took a deep breath before facing him again, I smiled and controlled my tears to fall. "Kailan alis mo?" nakangiti kong tanong.
He looks at me and wipes my tears, because even if I cry my best to control it. It still chooses to fall. "Gaano katagal ka daw doon? 3 months? 5?"sambit ko ang nagsimula na suminghot dahil nagpatuloy ng tumulo ang aking mga luha.
Gun just looks at me and keeps wiping my tears and caressing both of my cheeks.
"Punta tayo ng beach bago ka umalis, kahit 1 week lang" I keep on covering the sadness in my words and try to look for the good stuff, while he just truthfully stare at me and like his memorizing each and every part of it.
"I will leave tomorrow night Beb," He said that makes me stiff, b-bukas...a-agad..
"I will leave tomorrow if I choose to but if you continue crying like this, I might now go then," malungkot niyang sambit at patuloy akong tinitignan at pinupunasan ang pagtulo ng luha ko.
"Hindi na lang ako pupunta kung iiyak ka ng ganito," sambit niya at hinila ako upang yakapin ng sobrang higpit.
"Ayaw kong iwan ka kung iiyak ka ng ganito Sienna," He keeps on saying that, but this is his whole life dream, to be with his Dad, hindi pwedeng dahil sa akin ay hindi niya ito makakamit.
Pero hindi ko matiis na umiyak sa kanyang dibdib, hindi ko maisip na ganito kabilis...
"Pumunta ka Beb," I whisper and wipe my tears bago siya hinarap, looking through his eyes makes me want to beg him to forget about those dreams but I know it to myself that this will complete him as a kid.
His dream to be with his father will complete his whole time dream...
I smile at him, hold his hand, look down at it, and touch our tattoos.
"I know you always wanted to be with your Dad, and now this is your chance to stay with him," I said and looked back at those faded green eyes.
"Isa pa diba pangarap mo ring maghandle ng kumpanya ng Dad mo, ngayon na lahat mangyayari iyon Beb....*sobs* Susuportahan kita tyaka kaya naman natin ang long distance relationship diba," saying that last word makes my heart break but I need to be strong for the both of us.
"Kaya naman natin diba?" I ask once again when Gun started to wipe tears from his eyes.
He nodded like a child and looked at me, I smiled at him, "We can video call each other every day, every hour and every minute, wala lang ito diba...diba Charvy kaya natin ito ni Daddy," I cheerfully said.
"Ok," Gun said and kissed me, "I will do this for my Dad, and when I come back we will get married ok," he said and smiled at me.
I smile back at him and caress his cheeks, "Yes, I do," sagot ko kaya tumawa kaming dalawa at inenjoy muli ang sunset.
The sunset suddenly feel so heavy and fast, parang biglang natakot ako sa bilis ng takbo ng oras..at habang hawak ko ang kamay niya ngayon pakiramdam ko sa oras na binitawan ko ito ay matagal ko nang hindi ito muli mahahawakan.
Sobrang bigat ng pakiramdam ko sa bawat sigundong lumilipas at bawat haplos ko sa kanyang mga daliri ay katumbas ng patinding pagpipigil ng pagtulo ng aking luha.
Huminga ako ng malalim ng tuluyan ng nagtago ang haring araw at ang malamig na simoy ng hangin na dala ng madilim na gabi ang yumakap sa aking balat.
"Let's go," Gun said and try to let go of my hand but I didn't let him, tinignan niya ako ng hindi ko bitawan ang kanyang kamay at bakas ang lungkot ng kanyang mga mata ng tignan ako bago ngumiti at hinawakan din ang isa kong kamay at inalalayan pababa sa taas ng sasakyan at agad kaming sumakay at nilagay si Charvy sa dog crate niya sa back seat bago nagsimulang mag drive si Gun.
Sobrang tahimik lang namin sa byahe at patuloy paring mahigpit ang aking pagkakahawak sa kanyang kamay. I don't want to let it go...
I don't.
Dahil sa tagal ng byahe ay naka idlip ako ng hindi ko namamalayan at nagising na lang ako ng marinig ang tunog ng elevator at buhat-buhat akong nilabas ni Gun doon habang dala ng condominium helper ang crate ni Charvy.
I hugged him when I opened my eyes and felt his heartbeat, he opened the pad and let the helper put Charvy inside, and close the door.
"We're here," He whisper and we went inside our room. Binaba niya ako sa kama at naglalayo na siya agad kong inabot ang kanyang kamay at mahigpit muli itong hinawakan.
"Beb, I will just change," natatawa niyang sambit pero alam kong hindi totoo ang pagtawa niyang iyon.
Umiling ako at yumuko, mas hinigpitan ko ang hawak at umiling lang ng umiling.
"Beb, I will just change my clothes and I'll be back," he said and try to pull his hand kaya mas lalo akong umiling at tumulo na ang aking mga luha habang nakayuko.
"Sienna magpapalit lang ako ng dami---," tigilan siya ng hinarap ko siya at mas umiyak lalo habang tinititigan siya.
I just can't stop myself from crying, sobrang bigat ng aking nararamdaman at hindi ko magawang bitawan ang kanyang kamay.
Umiling ako ng dahan-dahan sa huling pagkakataon at yumuko muli, narinig kong nagbuntong hininga si Gun bago umupo sa aking tabi at itinaas ang aking mukha gamit ang isang kamay.
"I love you," he whispered before he kissed me and slowly pushed me down the bed, and moved above me.
"We can do this Beb, we can pass through this believe me ok, don't be scared" he whispered and wiped my tears.
After that he leaned down and kissed me like it was the gentlest thing he did in his life, his hand roaming around my body as the other one remained intertwined with mine.
"I love you Sienna, we can do this," he sincerely said and we shared a sweet and gentle night...
We can do this...
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Lost Partnership (Law of Attraction Series # 4)
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