Sanity {H•S}

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Tonight was the boys last night playing in chicago and we were heading to the next stop early tomorrow morning.

I sat in the seats watching up at stage, waiting for one of them to holler at me to get a water bottle or take an instagram picture for then, something quick and simple, something easy. I couldn't help but say to myself how fake it all was. Well, fake is a strong word, as their talents, they weren't fake. But the backstory behind it all.

They were performers. Not singers, performers

They were stood here on stage in front of me and they pretended they hadn't killed a man just two days ago.

I watch Harry get off stage.

"Styles where you going?" Gina shouts as Harry hops off stage mid-performance.

"Water" he shrugs. I frown as i knew he should have called for me.

"You have a fucking PA. Get your ass back on stage" Gina says angrily. Gina was the boss. She organised the boys on stage as Rad watched over them and she made sure everyone was okay. She was lovely. She had black hair and tan skin. She came from latin america.

"Alex you go grab a bottle of water for Harry"

"I can get it myself" Harry says rolling his eyes.

"No Harry you have to do your solo now and-"

"Fuck off Gina" Harry spat visibly annoyed and walks away  and goes backstage.

"I'll go see if he's okay" i mumble getting up and grabbing my things.

"Harry?" I call as i wander around backstage. I stumble across Reade and Lola making small talk.

"Reade, have you seen Harry?" I ask quietly.

"Check his dressing room love" he answers back with a smile and i return the favour and walk off to Harrys dressing room.

I walk in and i hear him mumbling to himself again.

"I'm sorry mum, i'm so sorry" he sobs.

"Please forgive me. Forgive me mum" he cries.

I watch him shake uncontrollably and i dash in and wrap my arms around him.

"Shush it's okay i'm here" i mumble.

"I'm so sorry mum" he cries to himself.

"Harry im here" i say softly, i was extremely worried that i wouldn't be able to help him.

"I can't do this, i can't" he cries and he started to pass out.

I frown and look around the room and find yet another empty pillbox and an open can of beer, with a knife that had a few drops of blood splattered across it.

"Fuck Harry!" I say worriedly.

Thats when i dropped to my knees and rang Niall.

Niall and Liam ran into the dressing room and helped Harry lay on the floor while he shook. I couldn't help but notice how diligent and helpful they were to him and i felt useless.

"Alex wet this cloth babe" Liam says ordering me to dampen the cloth. I do as im told and give it back to Liam.

Liam lay the cloth on his head as Niall helped Harry regulate his breathing. Harry lay on the floor sweating and still panicking but slowly pulling through it.

"He's starting to come around Alex and he's gonna kill us if he see's us here helping him. Just say it was you all along ok? Don't mention me or Liam" Niall warns and i nod scaredly as Harry slowed down and began to breathe normally again, his eyes were shut but now started to flutter open..

Thats why no one else came to help. They didn't want to overcrowd him and scare him..

He slowly sat up and instantly clutched his head.

"Ouch this shit fucking hurts" he mumbles grasping his head.

"you ok?" I ask quietly. He frowns.

"I could be better. But the important question, are you okay?" He says gently.

God he was so caring considering he just took depression pills with alcohol.

"You need help Harry" i say quietly he looks at me and shakes his head.

"Not you too" he mumbles putting his head in his hands.

"I asked if you were okay Alex. Are you okay?" He asks again and i frown.

"I could be better" i say, i copied him.

He smiles and shakes his head.

"Look at us two. Both broken as fuck" he laughs and i can't help but smile.

-.-
Play Cupids Chokehold by Gym Class Heroes now.

driving down the highway with him was the best feeling. It was the feeling of many great things blended together. Driving down the highway with him was an exotic and foreign feeling. A feeling i had never experienced before, an unknown feeling.

driving down the highway with him was like putting on fresh clothes after a walk in the cold,wintery rain.

driving down the highway with him was like hearing your favorite song play at a party.

driving down the highway with him was like listening to rain beat against the window as you sit silently and listen to music in your ears.

driving down the highway with him was like finally feeling free and open.

driving down the highway with him was feeling like the first time we met.

driving down the highway with him was feeling like the first time we kissed.

driving down the highway with him would feel like the first time we had sex..

"Stand up" he says as he opens the roof of his sports car.

"what? Are you serious? Isn't that illegal?"

"To stand while you drive ? Yeah sure. Not illegal if the passengers standing"

"Its dangerous Harry"

"Fuck it Al, Live your life " he smiles and with that i took a deep breath and unbuckled myself from my seat and stood up , grasping onto the side of the car.

I hollered in delight as Harry speeds up.

"Okay slow down big man,your making me nervous" i giggle and i hear Harry laugh. That laugh that made me smile, that laugh i liked so much.

"Your happy"

"Cause i take every day as it comes" i smile

"I must take a lesson off you so" he smirks

"Anyday boss" i wink

We Arrived at the arena for the last time this weekend and i couldn't be more happier to leave a place. Chicago was fun but i couldn't wait to leave as i had seen some bad things here...

"All ready boys?" A man shouted as he brought the boys side stage as Gina checked all their earpieces and mine. The boys nod and he then lets them out. I stand on side stage for the next two hours hoping i would be needed at some point!
-.-

AN:

Aw Cute🥺