𝕃𝕖𝕧𝕚 𝔸𝕜𝕖𝕣𝕞𝕒𝕟 𝕏 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕖𝕣 𝕠𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕥𝕤

Ｊｏｊｉ － Ｗａｎｔｅｄ ｙｏｕ ほぺユ乙

Song: Wanted You ~ Joji (listen to while reading)

warning: this one is very sad and angsty, like I mean very sad

Summary: Levi falls in love with the reader and she is very aware but doesn't love him back

Word count: 1078

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Here I am
Torn into a thousand shapes and folds
Torn into a thousand ways, I know
Fornicate inside your broken homes
Before I throw a smile your way, no more

Levi sat at his usual table in the mess hall, with Hanji on his left and Erwin across from them. Levi however, didn't listen to a single word they said as his full undivided attention was on (y/n) who sat at the other side of the room, talking with her friends. They had been on and off for a few months but now she was adamant things were over for good.

But his heart still belonged to her. She was the last thing he thought about at night. Her scent still lingered on his bedsheets and it drove him crazy, knowing he would probably never hold you in his arms or caress your soft skin again.

How had he fallen so hard for you? how did he let this happen? he still couldn't bring himself to hate you though. He would still die in a heartbeat for you

He felt broken, you were his gleam of light in this cruel dark world but he was plunged back into the lonely darkness. He needed her more than anything but she didn't need him.

I can't tell
If all my answers correlate at all
I'm telling you a thousand things I know

He watched as you laughed gleefully at one of your friends jokes. While he laid in bed with a fucked up head at night you seemed perfectly fine. It felt so unfair.

There was an oncoming expedition tomorrow but he felt like lost his will to fight. (y/n) glanced in his direction and met his steel eyes, her smile immediately faltered, he felt a pang of pain in his heart.

She looked away, returning to her conversation, ignoring him completely. he felt more sadness and anger bubbling up inside him. Slamming his cup onto the table he stood up abruptly, leaving the mess hall, earning everyone's attention.

He ran a hand through his ebony locks, a deep scowl etched onto his face. He had never knew true love until he met her, how could she cut is heart so deeply, he felt like he had a gaping hole in his chest. He knew one thing though, he would never let this happen again.

I've been missing a long time
To know I had to move
I've been waiting my whole life
To know I wanted you

Sleep didn't come easy that night for anyone, Levi especially. he tossed and turned the whole night, only getting maybe about an hours sleep.

Everyone was mounting their horses, preparing to exit the gates. They rode onwards with (y/n) up towards the top end of the formation, that was extremely unsafe and Levi felt really nervous about it. Like a bad feeling in his gut.

The mission was going smoothly until red smoke (i can't remember if that's the colour for danger, I'm high) was seen up ahead. Levi's eyes widened as he sped up his horse, leaving his squad behind, ignoring their calls.

I'm on trial
I'm not so good at hiding wholesome truths
You see it on my face when I turn blue

Once Levi was close enough he abandoned his horse, shooting up into the air using his ODM gear. There were dead bodies scattered everywhere, he eyed them all one by one his hair covering his eyes, with dark aura around him.

But none of them were (y/n). But he continued searching

He felt his hope die minute by minute as (y/n) was no where in sight. What if she was eaten? his heart stopped as he noticed a small figure hiding up in the tree branches. he took a sharp breath, heading towards them without hesitation.

(y/n)? he felt tears brimming his eyes as he landed on the branch, startling her, she turned to look at him with blood splattered across her face, tears pouring down her cheeks. His breath caught in his throat. She turned her full body to him, both of us looking completely miserable.

So punish me, I'm hanging on your noose
So pull me up so I can breathe with you

You both walked slowly towards each other, wrapping your arms around his torso, burying your head into his chest, he stood in shock for a moment before wrapping his arms around you, resting his chin on your head

"they're all dead" your voice quivered. Levi couldn't think of anything to say so he brought you closer to his chest

"if you hadn't come I would have been dead too, my gas ran out" you continued, your voice cracking. "I'd never let you die" he answered. They pulled apart, both still crying. You cupped his cheek with your hand, he leaned into your touch immediately.

"I'm so sorry that I can't return your feelings Levi" you whispered, Levi lowered his head staring down at the ground, titans were clawing at the base of the tree, trying to reach them. His heart went numb. More tears ran down his eyes. he nodded. "but I'll keep you in my mind always, we don't have to avoid each other" you added

I know
I've been missing a long time
To know I had to move
I've been waiting my whole life
To know I wanted you

You gave each other one last bittersweet kiss, knowing this would be the last time he'd ever taste your soft lips. It was a heartbreaking moment but in a weird way it felt like closure.

You both pulled apart steading your breaths. He picked you up bridal style taking off to find his horse he brought you back to his squad safe and alive. It would be hard but he hoped that life would treat you kind and that you would find love, even if it wasn't with him.

Are you feeling me slowly?

You can take your fucking time

And I promise I won't lie We'll make it out alive

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I felt sad just writing this wtf, let me know what you think though! if anyone has requests just ask :))