Please Enter Me, Engineer | EMS #1

CHAPTER 42

Vyxen Saichi Skanska

Did he really initiate the kiss last time? Did he really crash those goddamn palatable lips of him against mine? With his own accord? Ginawa niya ba talaga yun? How about the confession? Did he mean his words? Was that a fact or he was just upchucking falsehoods to trick me and inflict upheaval in my emotions? But damn, hindi niya naman gawain yun e...Hindi ganun si Yvio so ano yun? Ano yun?! Totoo? Darn! At bakit naman?!

Fuck! My head seemed to commence a bit traces of fissures because of the extensively thinking I have since lately- wrenching my brain to catch up with a substantial conclusion of why and where he fetch the guts to do those freaking stuff to me?

Hindi naman siya ganun eh. Gosh, hindi talaga eh...

Those lines "I like you not in bed and not in anything else. I like you, you." and also that, "Ikaw mismo ang gusto ko. Gusto ko ang lahat sayo, gusto ko ang buong pagkatao mo. Gusto kita." I never imagine he could possibly blast sappy things like that. Napakacorny pakinggan at nagpapantig ang tenga ko sa inis pag nakakarinig ng mga salitang tulad niyan, but when I heard those phrases from him hindi nagpantig ang tenga ko sa pagkairita bagkus may unusual heart rate lang akong naramdaman, tila bang nagpintig ang puso ko ng kay bilis dahil sa 'di mawaring galak na para ba--wait, ang cringey!

My thoughts were dashed out when an abrupt chill of appall cascaded throughout my system.

"G-gaga! What the heck was that? What did I just talk inside my head? Fuck?! That was damn mawkish!" I panicked and tousled my hair due to frustrations. "And I sound like makata? Gaga, what's that?! Yawang Tashiro Yvio yun nagiging awfully weird ako ng wala sa oras e!"

Gosh! What's gotten into him? Bakit niya ba kasi ginawa yun? Bakit ba kasi siya umakto ng ganun? Why he let out those utterances in front of my face bolt of the sudden? Gusto niya ba talaga ako? Sincere ba talaga siya? Oo? Hindi? Ewan? Fuck hindi ko alam! But goddamn! I sighted a flash of sincerity in his eyes- nagsusumamo itong genuine lahat ang mga pinagsasabi niya...at parang nadama ko naman talagang totoo ang mga iyon.

At isa pa yung pisting halik na iginawad niya sa akin, isang dampi, isang sipil lang yun ngunit matindi nang nangisay ang buong sistema ko dahil dun. Argh! Parang masisiraan na ako ng bait as of now...Hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko. Hindi na matigil-tigil 'tong utak ko sa kakarecall ng nangyari nung gabing yun.

I hate this! He's kinda messing up with my head! And this isn't serving any good, nakakabuang! Feeling ko mababaliw na talaga ako! Paulit-ulit na lang! Ang gulo-gulo!

ENGR. TASHIRO YVIO SALCEVO !

In the midst of pondering things about him, I couldn't count with my fingers how multitude times I've been shifting positions of laying upon the bed-from left to right and from right to left.

I problematically sighed. I don't know what to do, he's filling up all the spaces throughout my brain. What a scum?!

I pulled over the comforter over my head and abruptly pushed it back down to my chest. Sa katunayan ay hubo't hubad ako sa ilalim ng pantakip na ito, same as Hunter who's laying next to me- we had our usual wild engagements in bed last night. Uhm..yeah, we obtained a lot of pleasure and had so much fun, but the thing is I felt bad for having another man in my mind when we did it.

Oo, si Hunter ang kasama ko pero si Yvio ang tanging nasa isip ko habang ginagawa namin yun. Argh! Nakakafrustrate! Good thing, I didn't slip another name over my tongue whenever I flared erotic sounds. If ever I did it, he might give me a cold shoulder like before. Nagawa ko na 'to dati and super naoffend siya lalo na't sober naman ako. Kunsabagay sinong 'di mao-off run? Ikaw ang gumawa pero nasa iba ang credits?