Please Enter Me, Engineer | EMS #1

CHAPTER 57

Vyxen Saichi Skanska

"S-Sorry..." I shoved him, realizing the insanity I just did. I shouldn't kissed him with that kind of intensity. Arduous. "Forget what I've said. Okay lang ako at wala...wala akong kahit na ano. Maayos ako. Maayos na maayos," I repeatedly grumbled, convincing him nothing's wrong with me.

And before he even could talk I cut him off by hurling some of the queries wavering in my head. "Why did you come over here? And how come have you entered my unit?" I was bewildered about that fact, really. He didn't know my passcode. As well as I am to him. We never thought of exchanging security codes. For I rarely go at his place and he frequently come to my place with my accompaniment.

"You texted me." He tooked his phone from his pocket and showed me its screen, giving me a glimpse of our conversation. I saw three messages from me with the same context — come to my unit. "And about the passcode, I guess it. It's my birthday," he added.

I didn't composed those messages. For sure, Hunter did it. Since he was the only companion I had these preceding days, the only person who could have the access over the things in my place.

"Hindi ako ang nagpadala niyan, si Hunter. At hindi kita pinapapunta rito. At mas laling hindi kita kailangan kaya umalis ka na."

"Saichi."

"Don't touch me!" I shrieked as the shiver of zeal and fervor gushed throughout my system when he huddled both hands on my shoulders. I freaked out and abruptly nudged his touch. "Ano ba?! You're not helping me. Fuck, ano ba? Ano ba?! You're not even touching me sensually, but god damn sobrang nag-iinit na ako! Sobra-sobra" I tousled my hair. Mababaliw na talaga ako nito. Bakit ba kasi ako ganito?! "Leave me alone, Engr. Salcevo. Leave me. Umalis ka na, hindi ko na kinakaya 'tong nararamdam ko baka kung ano pang magawa ko sayo na ayaw mo kapag nanatili ka pa rito." Konting-konti na lang ay 'di ko na makontrol na ipilit ang sarili ko kanya. Just fuck, I was in the brink of losing my self restraint.

"No, I wouldn't do that. I wouldn't leave you alone. Never again." He blew a heavy gust.  "I'm sorry, I shouldn't vacate at your side. Hindi dapat kita hinayaang mag-isa at ipinilit ko na sana noong una pa lang na ayusin ang gulo sa pagitan natin," he said as he had wish to undone the decision he made for allotting space than an abrupt peace for the both of us. For me, he shouldn't be sorry for anything because it was apparent that his intention wasn't to neglect me but to lend a lone time  so I could get back the peace in my mind. "I'm sorry, I didn't notice you facing this sort of pressing problem although there were already tons of cues alotted for me to consider that there's something up to you. Pasensiya, hindi man lang ako nakaramdam kaya naman napabayaan kita...And I hate to think that you've suffered these past few weeks without me at your side. I shou--"

"Enough. Shut your damn mouth and stop blabbering shitty apologies. Wala ka namang ginawang mali kaya hindi ka dapat humihingi ng tawad." I bit my bottom lip, trembling. "Instead of asking forgiveness why don't you just leave? Mas maa-appreaciate ko yon at mas makakatulong ka pa roon."

"No, I wouldn't leave especially when I have  known about your condition."

"Nalaman mo tapos? Tapos? May magagawa ka ba? E, alam naman natin na hindi mo kaya at ayaw mong ibigay ang bagay na gustong-gusto ko para maibsan ang init na  nararamdaman ko."

"No, let's talk and fix things between us." He insisted but events went awry. Turmoil flared out of a sudden when he caressed my cheek, giving fervent tingles through my veins.

"I said don't touch me! Don't fucking touch me! So why do you lay your hands on me? Sabing wag e, edi dapat wag! Wag! Wag! Wag! Wag!" I roared with raspy voice as I slapped my palm against the floor and wriggled my limbs in erratic directions—acting like a kid who's having blowups for not tolerating the thing that she wants. "Fuck, you're making things worst. And you're setting me on fire even more."