Missed You (Yoonmin Omegaverse)

51-Namjin

Seokjin p.o.v

I was hoping that at some point in my life I would get over my coward self and trauma, Namjoon is my mate and the head Alpha of Masul pack, him and the whole back have been patient with me and always supported me, even when we all know the fact that Namjoon needs a pup that can lead the pack and insure it's safety after him.

I wasn't doing my part as a mate,
I wasn't doing my part as a Luna...

But I never got over the trauma, the emotional and physical pain of losing a child, the voices whispering inside my head that something like this might happen again, that I wasn't responsible and careful with my baby Gaeji,
That I don't deserve a second child...

I talked with Namjoon about my fears long time ago and all he did since then was take care of me and assure me that nothing can affect our love, whenever I'm in heat he would be careful to no knot me no matter how much his Alpha instincts kicked in, in his ruts I would take pills that stop pregnancy, pregnancy out of heats is rare but he didn't want to risk anything, neither I did.

Gaeji had stopped visiting me in my dreams for a while, but last night he did, he was a little bit taller now, his hair was a dark black color and his dimples were so cute, he was with the moon Goddess again and I thanked her deeply for taking care of my baby.

Gaeji talked with me about alot of things, I loved the way he would smile whenever I mentioned Namjoon's name, it was endearing.

Before he left he kissed my forehead and looked into my eyes,
"Mummy, I want you to know that I love you...I want you to know that no matter what I'm going to watch over you and protect you and my baby sister".

I woke up that day with pounding heart, I reeked of sandalwood and I knew it was real, but what did he mean by baby sister?!

Namjoon woke up to me staring at the ceiling with tears, his eyes watered too when he caught the sandalwood scent of our baby Gaeji, he hugged me tightly and kept on whispering sweet nonsense to me and helped me take a relaxing bathe.

But I threw up....
He was so worried when I started crying loudly after I threw up, he thought I was sick or in pain and panicked but I knew the real reason why I threw up so when he called the midwife to check up on me I didn't stop him.

When the midwife arrived she asked Namjoon to leave the room, he hesitated but I told him it was fine, she sat next to me and patted my back saying "congratulations",
I stared at her in shock cause I didn't know how did she know I was pregnant.

She told me how she noticed my sad eyes staring at Jimin and Army, how my talks with her about wanting to get pregnant and my fears affected her heart, she said she knew that if I took the first step everything would be fine and my trauma would finally end,

So she helped me take the first step that I was so scared to take.

I've asked her for the pills I take to prevent pregnancy because I ran out of them a few days ago,
Turns out she gave me pills of vitamins, Namjoon and I had sex three nights ago and I took the pills before but of course they didn't do anything.

I was mad at first and stood up leaving the room and wanted to get out of the house but she caught up to me in the living room and took my hand in her, she lead me to the couch and we sat, my gaze was fixed on the ground and my mind ran with thoughts.

I remember her words clearly,
"I did this for your own good, you have been hurt and mentally tortured Seokjin, you need to overcome your fear to go on with your life, you need a new beginning to erase the pain of your past darling".

My tears fell silently as she caressed my back,
"Seokjin I didn't decide anything for you, you have already talked with me and said you want to do this, you just needed a little push darling, you are like a son to me, I want to help you and take care of you".

I sobbed to my hands as she patted my back,

I'm scared...I'm scared to ...to do th-this Nanny",

"You can do it Seokjin, I will be there with you through it all, just take the first step sweetheart"

So now I was sitting on my bed waiting for Namjoon to come back home and enter our room to tell him the news hoping for a positive reaction...

I can do it, for myself, for my mate, for my pack, for Nanny, and for Gaeji...
I can do this...

🎡🎡🎡🎡🎡🎡🎡🎡🎡🎡🎡🎡

Okay guys I wanted to ask you something..
I've a new story in my drafts that I didn't publish,
It's mostly smut and angst and a little bit of fluff, I've never wrote anything like this before cause I'm more into fluff stories so I'm really hesitating to publish it...
So I wanna take your opinion...

Should I publish it and try writing about this new genre?
Y'all have been so patient with me whenever I update late and I'm so grateful for that so maybe I can try updating 4 stories and see how it goes specially that (missed you) is nearing it's end anyways...

Or should I focus on the current 3 stories only???

Tell me your opinion please 💜✨

Love you ❤💜✨