Unconditional and forbidden

Star Forset

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We sit in silence and I close my eyes in exhaustion. Saying anything was better than saying nothing.

The car comes to a stop. My head jerks with it I open my eyes I hear his door open and I open mine my head feels dizzy still and my legs are worse than jello.

I pull my feet out of the car and try to stand up I wobble and trip falling down I realize my feet have no shoes. I feel crummy dirt against my toes and knees "What are you doing" he grumbles.

He scoops me up and I look around "wh- where am I" I stutter out. I hear some water like a pond or a lake perhaps a water fall and I see the stars "Star forest" he says

I get a good look "Wow either this is crazy beautiful or I'm still loopy." I say my eyes light up in this beauty. "How did we get here to fast?" I asked astonished "it's only like a 30 minute drive." He utters.

"This is so pretty." I giggle for no particular reason Im still drunk I just feel less fruity.

"Wh- why did you bri- bring me here?" I ask he sets me down I sit immediately still scared to stand or walk. "This is were i go when I got stoned or drunk." He mutters sitting down next to me. he drives 30 minutes drunk and stoned he could kill himself or others.

"Just call me next time. You could hurt yourself " I mumble looking at the pretty city. "I don't bring girls up here.." he says glancing at me. "I hate to break it to you but last time I checked I'm a girl." I mumble checking in my shirt.

He laughs actually laughs sitting next to me. I grin. I being to tap my finger on my thigh. "How did you find this?" I ask

"I don't really remember it was so long ago." He says. "Like w- when you first learned the word hello you don't really remember how but it's just there." I mumble. He nods

"Forgetting is scary" I say drawing a heart in the dirt.

"So is love" he utters blowing on my dirt heart."You ruined my heart." I mumble a bit upset about out my dirt heart.
"Not yet" he whispers barely audible
"But you probably will" I whisper back drawing another one and smiling after about how much better it looks.

I see the cars passing by below us I'm surprised we haven't been interrupted by any bugs. I feel the crummy dirt on my thighs and shift uncomfortably.

"Wh- why didn't you want me to stay at the party? What w- was going to happen?" I ask look at him.

"It's not important." He mumbles "it was clearly important if you were trying to protect me from it" I say adjusting my position a bit.

"I'd protect you from anything." He say putting his hand on my thigh i look at him blinking a few times I bite my lip hard and play with his fingers.

I see four rings on his hand along with his tattoos and veins. "Do these have meanings" I question curious running my fingers over his.

"Two of them do this ones a family crest" he states pointing to one with a Skull on it and a leaf looking thingy. "My brother has one like this" I say recognizing another one twirling it on his finger "yeah it's basically there heir to the mafia ring." He says.

"Oh." I say softly "wait what" I think back he's second born why dose he have one.

"But shouldn't your brother have it" I whisper carefully pressing him for more information.

"I was in Italy for 4 years because my parents did think my brother wouldn't ever get his act together they were basically trying to get me to take over the mafia instead of him. I'm not sure if it worked or not but I have this ring." He says holding his hand up and wiggling his fingers.

"But you were only 13 when they decided that" I mumble he was barely a teenager before they decided to throw their world on his shoulders.

"Wouldn't your brother have To be d- dead for it to be fully yours." I stammer He nods slowly. "I think that's the last resort." He says "Yo- your parents wouldn't even consider that option." Right. I say in disbelief.

"Anything for power right " he mutters like this is normal he leans back cigarettes falling out of his pockets.

"Do you have a pen?" I ask he checks his pockets and pulls out a pin. I furrow my brows not expecting him to have a pen.

"Never know when I want a new tattoo." He says shrugging "but your not an adult" I say frowning and taking the pen "That's not what this  ID says" he pulls out his wallet opening it a fake id hangs out of it.

I grab the cigarettes and write 'cancer sticks' before placing them down again.

He laughs "why" I ask. "Is therapeutic" he says "so is dying." I add. He chuckles "I'm sure it is." He snickers.

I feel something rushing up my throat I get up I feel dizzy and I stumble trying to run to the nearest trashcan. I let it all out. My throat is burning and I have a gross taste is my mouth.

Embarrassment covers my face. I sit back down next to the trash this time trying to concentrate. I see Sebastians shoes and he hands me a water I look up at the water not making eye contact and grabbing it rocks are in beaded in my feet and I felt dirt falling off the back of my thighs.

I drink the water and swirl it around before spitting it out beside the trash.

I drink some water a feel a bit less lightheaded. Sebastian picks me up I wrap my legs around his torso he wipes dust dirt off my thighs I rub my feet together trying to get rid of it there my socks are In the car. I pull him closer and lean my face away from his leaning on his shoulder.

Tears building up in my eyes from embarrassment. I sniffle he pecks my neck and shoulder. Setting me down in the car he closes the door I grab my socks and place on my shoes.

I rest my body back down. As I close my eyes from exhaustion my phone dings and I pick it up slowly opening my eyes it my mom 'I love you.'

I send her a 'red heart emoji' it's like 1 Am why is she texting me so late or early. Unsure which one I decided.