Love & Survival (Discontinued)

O5

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i Stared At August Before Rolling My Eyes. This Shit Was Crazy We Had Been Planning This Date Since Forever But With Both Of Us Trying To Make New Music & Taking Care Of a New Baby We Barely Had Enough Time To Be Together. & With That We Had Been Arguing Like Crazy.

He Had Rented Out A Resturant For An Hour So We Could Be Alone But Since We Got Here He's Been On The Phone. i Waited A Second Before Standing Up To Go To The Restroom But He Trys Pulling Me Back Down.

i Grab My Purse And Keep Walking

"What I Do Now?" He Says But I Keep Walking.

When I Get Into The Bathroom I Throw My Purse On The Sink & Stare In The Mirror I Had Some My Bags Under My Eyes From Being So Tired, But I Was Still Cute Though.

A Couple Seconds Later August Was Walking Into The Woman's Bathroom. He Stares At Me Through The Mirror Before Speaking "You Mad? I Ain't Even Do Nothin"

"Exactly" I Say While Fixing My Lipstick.

"Nah I'm Serious , I Ain't Did Nothing Since We Got Here. So What's The Problem?"

"That's The Problem! You've Been On The Phone With Whoever Since We Got Here"

"And We Been Here Going On 40 Minute's Already" I Add.

Great I Just Started Another Argument.

"Why We Always Gotta Argue Over Stupid Shit Aubree?"

"Because You ALWAYS Say Or Do Some Stupid Shit."

Great That Starts A Whole Different Argument.

"Maybe If You Didn't Complain About The Stupidest Shit"

"Can I Please Have A Minute To Myself?" I Ask. I Was Tired Of Arguing We Been Doing This Shit For A Week Already

"No Fuck That Aubree! I'm Tired Of Fighting. Since We Both So Unhappy Why Don't We Just Leave? He Yells.

"Why Don't We leave?" I say between laughs

"I Don't Leave Because I Fucking Love You. I Don't Leave Because We Have 2 Beautiful Kids Together And They Need You Too"

"I Don't Leave Cause I ... I Wouldn't Know How To Live Without You" I Add.

I Was Getting A Lump In My Throat I Stared At August And Swallowed Hard Was He Really That Unhappy?

"But If Your Not Happy Leave." I say.

That's Not What I Wanted But I Cared About His Happiness More Than Anything.

"I'm Happy Where I Am" He Says While Tugging On The Collar Of His Shirt.

"You Know What .. I Really Just Wanna Go Home" I Say Then Walk Out The Bathroom

Some Time Later Me And August Were Sitting At The Table Laughing Again. "I'm Glad To See Them Pearly Whites Again" He Says And I Laugh

I Look Down At My Nails But He Lifts My Chin Back Up " I Didn't Mean What I Said Earlier"

"Okay" I Say While Shaking My Head

I Believed Him , I Just Didn't Wanna Talk About It Anymore. I Look Back Down At My Nails But He Quickly Lifts My Chin Back Up Almost Breaking My Neck & Shit.

"Damn Augu-" "I'm Serious Man! I Love You , I'll Always Love You. Ion Never Want Us To Be That Situation Again."

I Look At Him In The Eyes And Shake My Head Yes. I Knew He Was Getting A Little Emotional.