Time is a measurable fear

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February 14, 2020


Stress is a rocky mountain and a freezing wave that leaves you shivering and in shards

The part I don't like about being in foster care is the high-stress situations

I don't like the fear of not knowing where I'll be next week


The stress makes me shake and talk too fast, and I have to purge my brain of all the fleeting terrible fears


I don't want to be here in this classroom where I feel so small and powerless

I hate it


I know I'm not going home now

I'm going to an RTC because of December and-

Who knows, maybe I won't go home for a while

Not even a foster home

I am floating

Falling

Lazily drifting

Aimless in a sea of clouds

Just air

And I see nothing

I can't feel myself anymore


Why do I have to be human?

I need to throw up

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