18 Years of God Damn Bullshit: A Memoir

2-21-21

If I had known it was the last time

Would I have meant the goodbye?

Would I have said something worth a damn

Other than 'just try'

Did you know it was the last time?

When you picked up the line

Or did you keep on the wishing like me?

For more, and more, and more time

As I sit here with bitter memories

The only thing you left

As I sort through the photographs

As I learn to let go

As if I was there

If I had tried

Would it make a difference

Would you still have died

And if they had saw

If they only knew

Would I be here, thinking of you?

Seems the most beloved are far too gone

Did you know it was the last time

They won't tell me anything

Guess I understand

And if I was there

Would I have tried

Does it make a difference now?

Did they see

I'm sure they knew

Did you know it was the only way I'd think of you

Yes, the most beloved is far too gone