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Jikook- Again and Again [Part Two]

Jungkook was too concerned for his hyung at this point to ignore the information right in front of him. It's been four days since he last read Jimin's journal. He was scared for him.

Which is why he planned on reading more again today. He hoped Jimin had started to eat again...

May 8, 2021

I think Jungkookie caught onto me. Every time we are scheduled to eat together he always sits next to me and has me try his food, even though we have literally the same thing. He's been hanging out with me more often than normal. I don't know if there's something wrong with him or not, but I know there's definately something wrong with me. I still haven't eaten- well, actually that's a lie. I have eaten. But I've made myself throw it up after every time. I should talk to Namjoon hyung, I need to get back in touch with my therapist. I've been so down since my last entry, I don't even know- Taehyung had to talk me into even going to the studio yesterday, because I was feeling so mentally sick I couldn't get out of bed. I didn't tell him what was wrong, but what hurts my heart the most is that he's okay with me not saying. He told me I could tell him when I'm ready, and that he will listen when I am. I love Taehyung, I do.

I don't even know where this came from. Yoongi hyung definately caught onto me, and he talked to me the other day about it. He told me to message my therapist, but I can't. I just want it all to just magically disappear without this pain of reaching out. I don't even know if it's the anxiety or what- mean fans, I have no idea.

"Jungkook..."

Jungkook closed the journal and turned around, to see Jimin standing over his shoulder. "H-hyung," Jungkook gulped nervously. He slid the blue journal back under Jimin's bed and stood up. "I was just-" "Why?" Jimin's tone was soft and worn out. Jungkook's heart broke a little- no, a lot. "I'm sorry, I-I didn't know what it was, and I didn't know it was yours." Jungkook came up with a quick excuse. Jimin pulled the hood of his hoodie over his head and sighed, going back to his bed and flopping down on it. "Whatever..."

Jungkook couldn't stand to see his hyung like this. His makeup was barely even done properly, as if to show how exhausted he was.

"C-can I sleep with you again, hyungie?" He asked, walking over. "I don't care." Jimin's soft voice ran in Jungkook's ears, just as he hid his face in his matress and curled up. Jungkook pouted and climbed over Jimin, hugging him from behind and swinging his leg over his waist. "I love you, hyung." He told him close to his ear, missing Jimin's body in his arms. Jimin didn't say anything back.

Jungkook sighed and reached down, slipping his hands inside Jimin's hoodie. Jimin jolted and turned around. "Jungkook-!" "I can feel your ribs, hyung! You're not eating!" Jungkook sat up and removed his hands. Jimin grumbled and sat up. "So what?!" He turned around to face him. Jungkook stood up, about to yell at him. "You don't f*cking understand how important it is! I hate that you don't f*cking care! You are so goddamn important and you treat your body like sh*t! When it is the most beautiful thing I've ever f*cking seen! What the f*ck will it take for you to f*cking understand that?! I hate that you don't give a sh*t! When you don't eat it makes me sad- it makes me so goddamn sad, and upset, and worried as hell! I'm scared I'll wake up one day and you won't be alive because you f*cking starved yourself! I'm worried, and I don't know how else to tell you through cursing like a sailor because you NEVER LISTEN!" Jungkook snapped at him, screaming with his hands while Jimin just sat on his bed.

Namjoon and Taehyung rushed in at Jungkook's foul language, but when they heard what he was actually saying they didn't interrupt. They stood by the doorway in complete silence.

"And-you-YOU ARE SO STUPID! Every single time you go through something you take it out in an unhealthy way! Whether that's bottling it all up or starving yourself-" "Well I'm sorry my sh*tty mental health is an inconvenience to your life!" Jimin cut him off angrily. "That's your f*cking problem! It's not a f*cking inconvenience! It's a f*cking problem that you need help with but you won't f*cking let anybody help you! And that's why I'm yelling at you because I want to help you but you won't let me!" Jungkook shouted. "Let me help you goddamn it!"

Yoongi and Seokjin stood behind Namjoon and Taehyung, and soon enough, J-Hope too.

"Jimin!" Jungkook snapped Jimin out of the trance he was in. Jimin shook his head, he was feeling so stressed and overwhelmed now that everyone was staring at him. "Let me help you- if not me, someone else." Jungkook stepped closer to him, tears in their eyes. "Please, hyung." He begged, watching for any signs of agreement from Jimin.

Jimin hugged himself tight, ignoring the strong pain in his stomach. He turned and ran to his bathroom, crying. Jungkook ran after him to stop him before he could slam the door, but all he got was pain in his face before his sight to Jimin was cut off.