𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘸𝘯 | 𝘫𝘰𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘢

0.17

joshua's pov -

"u gotta shake this man" matt said sitting on the couch next to me. "how the fuck am i supposed to shake this? i lost her! and i hurt her! i promised i would protect her from any harm but i ended up the one breaking her! u dont get it" i rolled my eyes and went into the kitchen. "its still not the end, fight for her, gain her trust again" he replied walking behind me, "its not that easy" i said pouring myself a glass of water,
"i never said it is".

"so, any new ideas since u came back to la?" my producer asked me as i sat next to him, "actuall yes, i do have something in my mind".

"i just hope that she will hear it and get the message that i will do it all again if i need" i said as i stopped the voice record of the song, "dont get your hopes up, from what sof told me she is an overthinker if thats even a word" matt said, "im gonna have to agree, a song can be confusing, think about a plan b" larry added and i nodded.
"i dont expect her to just forgive me right away, its gonna take time, and im gonna have to take it slow and let her heal, but im willing to wait".

olivia's pov -

"did u see? he is releasing a song! its about u im sure about it" sofia said in excitement, "good for him, i couldn't care less" i snapped and kept on walking towards our lockers.
"yo now that the curly boy isnt around here anymore..what do u say about a movie friday night" i felt someone saying while putting their arm around me. "michael go to hell, what makes u think she is available?" julia snapped as i took his arm of off me. ״next time u touch me or anyone else again without asking i will make sure u wont be able to touch anyone or anything  anymore" i said walking away and entering the girls restroom. i sat on the floor by the sink pulled my sleeve up and stared at the bracelet, not noticing that my vision is getting blurry. feeling the tears on my face, i got up, looked in the mirror, wiped them away and took the mascara that was in my bag and applied it, trying to make it seem like nothing happened.
well, nothing happened, i just miss him, thats it. end of story. i tried to convince myself.

"what do u say about a sleepover at my house tonight? we could use a little girls night" julia suggested as we left the gate of the school.
"uh..um i dont think-" i tried to decline remembering josh's song comes out tonight, i just wanna listen to that while crying honestly. "liv it will be good for u" sofia said cutting me off, "i really appreciate u guys looking out for me, but im really just not in the mood, everything is ok, i promise" i replied hoping they will give up, "ok well if u need anything call us please" julia said and they walked the other way.

"mom are u here?" i yelled getting into my house, no one answer, i guess she is still at work, i went up to my room, got showered and did my homework and then went back to bed, i read a little bit from a book i just started, and fell asleep.

i woke up looking at the clock beside my bad seeing its 1am, i guess my mom didn't wanted to wake me up. then i remembered, the song, its out.

i took the airpods from the drawer next to my bed and pressed on the song on spotify.
soon after the song was over, tears were all over my face, theres not way it's about me, he loves another girl now, he probably loved another girl when we were together and felt bad for me so he never said anything. i did fucked up, im sure i did sometimes wrong. he has a reason to be ashamed of me, i dont blame him, im not cool, and im not smart, and im not pretty, i dont deserve him, and i dont deserve a song.

after a few times ive listened to that song i heard a short ring coming from my phone, checking it i saw its him. its josh.

its a short chapter IM SORRYY
also the dl reference in josh's message pls im so sorry-
i personally dont like this chapter at all so again sorry😩😩
but hope yall enjoyed it a little at least luv uuuu