Help me (C.D//J.G)

Chapter 11

Cassidy's pov
I opened my eyes and looked around. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I threw my comforter off of me and walked to the bathroom. I quickly peed and washed my hands and face. It was 8 in the morning and I sat down at the island and remembered Adam making pancakes or breakfast every single morning. Here come the water works. I calmed down and saw nick sleeping on the couch. I sighed and pored myself some apple jacks and ate them. I walked back upstairs and saw my phone still blew up. I walled to the bathroom and took a fast shower, because the water and soap was burning my cuts. I glanced down at them and squeezed my eyes shut. I got out and wrapped the towel around my body and hair and walked to my room. I put on black seamless underwear and a pair of leggings. I grabbed a PINK sweatshirt and turned the AC on and put on a thin coat of mascara and put my white high top vans on. I grabbed my phone and walked downstairs and saw nick playing xbox.
"Hey nick I'll be back I'm gonna go grocery shopping, and a run a couple more errands be careful love you" I said and walked to the car. It was still March so it was a little chilly. I rolled my sleeves up and drove to the grocery store and bought what we needed. I went to the bank and got my check from magcon, and payed a bill. I drove back home and saw a car in the driveway. I grabbed the three bags I had and walked inside. I saw two boys playing the Xbox and they turned around and my face fell.
"Cassidy" a boy said. I turned around and saw him sitting on the couch next to nick.
"Jack what are you doing here!" I said and dropped the bags and ran to him. He pulled me into a hug and I put my face on his shoulder and bit my lip to keep from crying.
"Hey cass I'm going to bens house" nico said walking out. I laughed and shrugged my shoulders and Jack and I sat on the couch.
"Cass I'm sorry about your parents" he said playing with my hands.
"Thanks jack" I smiled and held the tears back.
"Baby don't cry your too pretty" he said rubbing his thumb over my cheek. I nodded my head and forced a smile. He smiled back and I rested my head on his shoulder.
"Where's Cam?" I asked.
"He's still at magcon with this chick named rachel" he said shrugging his shoulders. i nodded my head and bit my lip.
"Yo it was so funny they locked us out of the hotel room and you could hear the bed POUNDING the wall and you could hear them moaning all fucking night they must've had like 10 rounds they were so Loud" he said laughing and rolling his eyes. I stood up and ran out the back door and ran to my old swingers I used to have. I began to breath heavily and lost it. I fell of the swing to my knees and curled up into a ball and cried. I heard the door open and heard someone running. I opened my eyes and saw Jack picking me up bridal style and I closed my eyes and he brought me up to my room. I began squirming in his grip and finally got our and fell to the ground. He sunk to the ground wit me and cradled me into his chest. I began crying so hard I was screaming and gasping for air. He rubbed my back kidding the top of my head. I repeatedly hit his chest but it was more like touching his chest because I was so weak.
"Cassidy cass babe look at me" Jack pleaded. I took a deep breath and looked up at him the tears still falling.
"Baby it's going to be okay I'm so sorry babe so sorry" he said kissing my forehead. He stood up and held his hand out for me to take it. I slowly put my hand up and took it. He brought me to my feet and I stumbled a little bit. He held my waist and brought me to the bathroom.
"Look in the mirror" he said. I shook my head no.
"I'm ugly" I said tearing up again. He reached for the bottom of my sweatshirt. He pulled it up and began to expose my stomach and my black sports bra. He picked me up and sat me on the counter and went down to my white converse and took my shoes and socks off. He made his way to the top of my leggings and I looked up at him nervously.
"It's okay baby girl" he said and pulled them down slowly which left me in my black sports bra and black seamless underwear. He stood me in front of the mirror and told me to look at myself and it made me want to gag. His eyes began to tear up and traced his eyes and saw he was looking at my cuts. I turned around and he cupped my cheek and a tear fell out of his eye.
"Why are you crying don't cry" I said tearing up also. He went into my shower and grabbed the razor and took it of and held it to his wrist and made a slit and it began bleeding instantly. I grabbed his wrist and looked at it with my eyes the size of tennis balls.
"Why did you do that Jack!" I yelled with tears coming out yet again.
"If you cut yourself I'm cutting myself " he said.
"Jack it's not that easy" I said wiping a tear away. He looked at me intently.
"Help me" I said.
"I'll try" he replied wiping his tears.