Ski left a while after and it was about 3:30 in the evening we were sitting watching TV .
" X where do you live ?" I said turning to face him .
" umm with my grandma .....sometimes " he said turning to face me .
" sometimes? "
" well yeah I spend most of my time at Stokeley's house after we came out of jail and my mom kicked me out " he said not meeting my gaze " sucks I know but I ain't mad about it "
" why not ? "
" it's better as much as I miss her it wasn't working - I was depressed - and it was just confusing - my thoughts my everything , it wasn't her it was me " he said taking my drink
" suicidal ?" I said staring at the roofJahseh froze with the bottle .
" yeah " he whispered " you get those thoughts too "
" yeah " I whispered
" what was your reason ?" he said staring at the roof like me
" bullshit life . My mom just - " I sighed " she doesn't even try to get to better and I got the same stupid addition problem - I had to grow up at 12 and 13 and school didn't make it any better so I tried it a couple of times but I woke up every time - Drinking solves my issues though."
" I feel the exact same way I did or rather I do pills sometimes and weed life fucking sucks bro . but you being secluded and depressed isn't gonna make it any better . Me and Stokeley are your friends now - I'm your friend ."
" yeah your my friend " I whisperedWe passed around the drink until the bottle was empty and only then did we stop staring at the roof .
" fuck this " he broke the silence" lets do something . "
" do what ?" I said slightly nervous
" go put on a swim suite were going to the beach get up nigga " he said hitting my thigh .I put on a big hoodie over the bikini and we left .
We got to the Florida beach and I glared at him
" too many people " I sighed . He took my hand and I blushed as we walked on the sand setting down the mat , the drinks and snacks .
" WATER !" he exclaimed recording my disappointed expression.I took off my hoodie and he did his shirt .
Jahseh studied your figure intently seeing your body move from a distance in the club and having all to himself here was different - imagining all the ways he could make you scream his name .
" Jahseh ?" I said as he eyed me weirdly
" what ?"
" your staring "
" your sexy "I rolled my eyes and tied up my braids and he took my hand and we ran to the waters edge with him pulling me in completely soaking my hair . I swallowed a good set of water and began coughing as he laughed . We floated around for a bit talking and laughing . Jah even started chasing me around
" Jahseh ?" I said not seeing him anymore . I felt two arms around my waist pulling me onto him as I giggled . I turned to admiring his form . My mouth nearly watered while I was eyeing his wet dreads , pretty smile and tatted being .
We stared at each other for a while , I wrapped my arms around his neck and my feet around his waist , resting my head on his chest .
" you trust me ?" he said wrapping his arms around my waist . I squinted .
" why ?"
" yes or no y/n ?" he said sighing
" kinda "
" bitch stop being difficult come on"
" yes" I smiled .
" good "He took us out a bit far while I whined and complained . I gasped a bit feeling his hands cup my ass keeping me up . Jahseh and I swayed with the waves in silence with my head on his chest as I relaxed . I squeal a bit with him groping my ass .
" Jahseh ...." I said looking up at him. I got down glaring at him . " you know I can't - "My eyes widen feeling his hands quickly pick me up , our eyes never left each others .
" I 'm happy about what happened at school " he said now facing me as I blushed directly in front of him .
" why? now everybody thinks I want you "
" do you ?" he said
I turned away putting my head on his shoulder . He ducked me under .
" WHAT THE HELL "
" answer " he laughed
" no-" he dunked me again
" answer Y/n " he said
" you answer then me " I said trying to reason
" ladies first "
" okay go ahead "
* dunks again *
" is you calling me a bitch ............... bitch " he said with a twisted expression
I laughed at his expression
" answer Jah "
" fine - yes I want you " he said turning away
" I didn't think you would actually want me - your just saying that to hit " I said shoving his shoulder
" ayo chill - if I wanted to hit I would have or I would have tried - I don't want to do that shit yet, I feel something more with you." Jahseh wouldn't even look at me , I'm glad he didn't see me because I was blushing stupidly . " your turn now "
" maybe I do - something is different about you ." I smiled still with my head on his shoulder ." I will take that shit as a yes - you finna let me take you out ?"
I didn't answer, I was too busy staring at the water then suddenly I was under it .
" Y/N !" he said
" huh "
" you heard what I asked ."
Waving my hand in the water truly oblivious to what he asked .
" yeah sure " I smiled
" aight then tomorrow I'll pick you up at like 7 or 8 "
" okay" I kissed his cheek and eased down from his grasp .
" aye where you going "" RACE YOU TO THE SHORE LAST ONE THERE GETS NO ALCOHOL FOR A WEEK ." I yelled already starting .
" AYE WAIT WAIT YOU FUCKING CHEATING YOU GOT A HEAD START " he yelled trying to catch up .We reached the shore and he held my foot and tackled me to the ground landing right on top of me as we laughed . I twisted and turned easing away - I finally pushed him off but he kept a hold on my foot .
" You don't need anymore beer "
" oh yeah ........ well take it from me then " I said crawling on the sand
" fuck " he mumbled still not catching up as I made my way to the mat . In one last desperate attempt he tripped me up but caught me and threw me over his shoulder opening the beers and handing me one .He left his hand print on my ass while he was at it
" all mine " he said sitting on the mat " you lost by the way so thats your last beer for a week "
" very funny - its a tie - I got a head start and you cheated . " I said eating some puffy cheetos .
" that's your last drink for the week " he laughed sarcastically .
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I Shouldn't Love You ( xxxtentacion x reader )
FanfictionHe is all your bestfriend thinks about , though you never cared much about him or anything for that matter . She was always outgoing and pretty and you were a rather relaxed teen with good grades and a drinking problem . Life is about to get crazy...