Life still goes on (Lexa/you)

chapter twenty seven

"...god, lexa i hate you but at the same time i can't hate you..."

*time skip to christmas*

i always feel the sudden urge to think about that night i slept with Lexa course we went on like nothing happened

*flash back*

we decided to just chill and watch a movie i had no clue what we were watching so i went on my phone for the remaining time

i felt her hand creep up my leg and i saw the time and shot up

"well thanks for letting me stay i should get going since the sun is down and my ride is here" wow nice save y/n you know damn well no ones waiting for you

i didn't wait for her answer or to say something that'll make me stay because i know damn well i stay there even if she didn't beg, i went
out the door before her parents can see me and ran all the way and ended up at the train station and i saw my favourite bus boy

"y/n long time no see i missed hearing you sing how come you haven't came around?" chad said

"haven't had the time" i said truthfully

"you know christmas day there's a music producer coming down for the holidays you should come sing" he mentioned and i sat and thought about it, maybe i should? what if i make a fool out of myself

"we'll see chad maybe i'll sing an original from my broken heart" i said laughing and walking away

*flash back ends*

maybe i should go check it out after we eat later of course my dad invited lexa and her family but i didn't care anymore we never spoke to each other after that night

i heard a knock on the door and opened it and welcomed lexa and her family in, i welcomed her parents with a true smile but once it came to her i had to fake one instead of glaring at her

"hello again" i heard her say which i just nodded and didn't wanna say anything to her

"come on y/n you said it yourself it was a one night stand if i'm being the honest one i was hoping it was more than that i missed you too much to even think of that night as a mistake" she said truthfully

"let's not do this Lexa let's just have dinner and get through the night and everything will go back to how it was" i said not wanting to look at her

"and how was it what will it go back to?" i heard hurt in her voice but i can't do this, i can't trust her to not hurt me again

"to being strangers" i said finally looking at her and giving her a soft smile and the look on her face looks so broken and lost so i walked away like the times she had did to me

i sat down at the table by my dad and avoided everyone's stares and my dad spoke some words that he was glad to have everyone here and that he was happy lexa and i got together because if we haven't he wouldn't have met his "best friends" like who says that?

"you talk like we're both still together" i said finally looking up and catching lexas eyes which widened as she looked at her parents