Life still goes on (Lexa/you)

chapter thirty

"...Lexa or Luna, kept replaying in my head.."

Y/N POV

i stirred waking up is it okay to regret coming home?

i looked over to Marie who was still asleep she'll probably sleep all day knowing her

i went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and hair

i spit out the remaining tooth paste in my mouth and watched the corner of my mouth with a towel

i stared at myself in the mirror i look like i haven't slept in ages touching the not very noticeable eye bags
i look like crap

i opened my door and saw my dad about to walk in my room

"was about to come wake you up i made you and Marie breakfast but i don't want to wake her up" he pointed towards my room which made me laugh

"yeah Marie can sleep for a whole day after a flight" i laughed walking down the stairs

i walked into the kitchen and see plates with food on it already set on the table i sat down "it looks delicious thanks dad" i started stuffing my face with the breakfast which made him laugh at me

after breakfast i settled on the couch more like i laid on the couch and started watching "to all the boys i've loved before"

my dad sat down and watched a bit with me "can you imagine if that was you with all the people that fight for you" i have a feeling who he's talking about

"like Luna Lexa and bellamy but you were the one that gave the letters out and making them come back butttt no matter what you do they always end up coming back" he joked making me laugh lightly and throwing a pillow at him

the movie finished so i just laid there looking for another movie, my dad eventually left me now i'm allll by my selfff

i stopped at "the sun is also a star" and out it on, about ten minutes into the movie i felt my eyes getting heavy

i just let my eyes close and was about to let sleep take over my body until i heard a knock on the door but i just laid there and let whoever at the door knock longer

"are you gonna get that or do you want me too?" i heard my dad say from the doors i just mumbled out a no and heard him walk towards the door and opening it to see who it was

"is y/n home?" i heard someone say so i sat up and peeked my head to look over the couch a bit and caught eye contact with brown eyes

"yeah she's on the couch" my dad said as he turned towards me and caught me staring like a creep which made me duck down and buried my head into the couch like an idiot

"hey" i heard her say
i turned towards her really slow extremely slow, did i mention really slow?

"hey Luna didn't see you here when did you get here?" i said trying not to make it obvious that was i staring at her at the door, playing it off like i'm cool

"y/n-" she started laughing "you literally saw me at the door i saw your beautiful e/c eyes peeking from the couch" which made me put my hands on my face in embarrassment groaning and sat up so she could sit down on the couch but leaving space between us. i hugged my knees to my chest facing towards her

"i missed you and wanted to come see you" she said looking at me

"well i didn't miss you" i said as a joke, she placed her hand on her check

"ouch you've wounded me y/n" making me laugh at her

"what are you watching" she said she did a hand movement towards the tv

"i was watching the sun is also a star but was kind of falling asleep watching it so i think i'll replay it if you wanna watch too?" she just nodded so i grabbed the remote replaying it

a few minutes in we didn't talk we just relaxed and enjoyed each other's company like we didn't before i left

"can i rest my head on your lap?" i asked Luna and didn't wait for her answer and laid my head on her lap getting comfy

we were still silently still watching as i felt as she started to run her hand through my hair making me relax even more we were at the part where daniel is trying to prove that natasha can fall in love with him in 24 hours because of "fate" which made Luna chuckle

"how can someone fall in love within 24 hours is that even possible" she said making me laugh lightly

we were halfway through the movie i was starting to fall asleep because Luna was still running her hand through my hair
i tried my hardest to stay awake but with her playing with my hair is making it 10x hard so i closed my eyes and fell asleep

i woke up with my body flushed against the couch i guess Luna left

"you're finally up" i looked up to see Marie
"wow you don't even look happy that it was me would you rather i was Luna" she said wiggling her eyebrows

"Shut up Marie but when did she leave?"

"about two hours ago i think, i came down to see what you were doing and saw you sleeping on her LAP y/n care to explain, anyway she looked at me and asked if i can help her get you off so she didn't wake you up so i helped her i basically had to pry you off her because when i did get you off a bit you wrapped your arms around her so we kind of waited for you to let go" she said making my face go red

"oh my god please tell me you're joking" i said

"i'm not lying i swear even text her and ask because she wants you to text her" she said walking into the kitchen

i stood up from the couch and made my way upstairs to my room
i sat at the computer desk in my room and pulled out my trusty dusty note book and stared at it for a bit before letting things pour out of me while writing down everything single thing coming to mind

i thought about the times Lexa betrayed me, the times she would go back to Costia so quick like i was nothing like she was talking to her while we were together to make it worse she'd bring her around after not being broken up long and how she'd tell me they were just "friends"
how could i never see how obvious i was

before i even noticed i had a new song written right in front of me i had the perfect song pre recorded with the guitar and a beat but never had the lyrics lTHIS IS PERFECT" i said out loud as i stared at the lyrics laid out in front of me with a smile on my face

"y/n your dad said the town would love for us to preform at some festival tomorrow- oh what is that" she said staring down at my notebook

"it's a song and yes we can perform, i think i want to sing this at the festival" i claimed looking up at her, tapping on the desk with a pencil and could tell she already read it

"i love it, it's like the perfect heart break song what are you going to call it?" she asked which made me stare down at my notebook in thought,

guilty?.. no, calling it quits?... nah, betrayed?... no that doesn't sound good either wtf..

Traitor..

"traitor.." i said writing it down on the page on the very top in all caps, Marie patted me on the back

A/N: word count 1332,
i think for y/n's album it should be sour by olivia rodrigo because i think it's so relatable..

Happy pride month you beans😉

p.s someone play with my hair like Luna pls

also to the people who add my book to their "might read lists" you better read or elmo's gonna sue, i'm kidding