Life still goes on (Lexa/you)

chapter thirty three

Y/n pov:

i laid in bed all day thinking about everything last night, maybe it's time to write another sad song, just kidding

i got up to brush my teeth and use the bathroom after i did all that i flopped on my bed face down into my pillow

am i able to bleach myself after Costia kissed me? out of everyone i came home too Costia was the one that kissed me what the fuck?

i heard a soft knock at my bedroom door and then opening it a little

"y/n are you up?" my dad spoke quietly, i just threw him a thumbs up
"there's a woman downstairs at the door for you, she came here earlier but the sun was out still and i sent her away but she's back"

i groaned into my pillow pushing myself up slowly, i looked into the mirror staring at myself, i had messy hair and looked like i need ten more hours of sleep but i don't care how i look.

i got up slowly walking down the stairs and peaked towards the door leaning on the wall,

it was costia

"why are you here?" i said staring at her from where i was, my dad stood right by her at the door, he looked between the both of us and walked away,

i seen Marie coming out of the kitchen but she stopped and started backing away into the kitchen again, talk about awkward

"y/n- i came to say sorry. i was drunk i didn't know what i was doing," she spoke still standing at the door watching me like a hawk

"okay" is all i let out

"okay?"

"okay, i don't forgive you." i walked towards her

"but i'm here apologizing y/n-" i grabbed onto the door as she was going to continue

"apology not accepted, costia what makes you think i'd ever want to be with someone like you?" she looked hurt by what i said

"you ruined both me and Lexa's relationship, you made her kiss you, so you ever go for people who are into you?"

"i only did it because i was jealous of Lexa" she whispered

"you were jealous?!" i said kind of loudly "there was many ways you could've tried something with me? but what you did made me hate you"

we both stood there not saying anything, she stared at the ground, she looked like she wanted to say more things but nothing was coming out of her month,

"i think you should go costia" i spoke up making her look at me finally, she nodded walking away from the door as i shut it.

i walked towards the kitchen sighing, i poured myself a cup of water and leaned against the counter rubbing my temples with my eyes closed

"rough day already y/n?" i heard Marie say

"yes Costia came to confess her undying love for me" i replied groaning making Marie laugh extremely loud

"so the love triangle is a love square now?" she laughed

"no it'll never be a love "square" i would never like Costia back" i said

"hmm i wouldn't say that maybe she's a changed woman" she replied laughing harder

"no you date her if she's a changed woman" there was a knock at the door that cut our conversation short

both Marie and i stared at each other confused as the person at the door kept knocking

"do people not know how to stay home late at night? and i swear to god if it's costia again i'm going to leave and go on another tour again" i said as i was about to start walking out of the kitchen but Marie stopped me

"don't worry i'll get it and if it is costia i'll just say you're not here" she said walking out

i finished my cup of water so i went to the sink to clean it off and put it away, i heard Marie walk back into the kitchen but she wasn't saying anything"

"who was it?" i said turning to her and she stood there with a concerned face

"um i think you should go and check for yourself" so i nodded and walked out of the kitchen and towards the door

i wiped my hands before opening it slowly, i saw the person looking away from the door and as soon as they heard it open they turned towards me,

lexa stood there staring at me with tears running down her face, her state broke my heart,

" lexa are you okay?" i let out, she shook her head and i stepped out of the house closing the door behind me

as soon as i closed the door she pulled me into a tight hug she was holding me like i was dying, i can already feel her tears soaking my shoulder

i was taken back a bit and slightly confused, i didn't know wether to hug back or not. i just stood there letting her hug me both of us not saying a word,

"don't leave me y/n" she sobbed into my shoulder hugging me tighter if that was even possible

"i don't think i can Lexa, you kind of have a strong hold on me" i joked letting out a soft laugh

"don't leave me y/n, i want everything with you" she sobbed more

"i want the happy, sad, goofy memories with you, get frustrated with me, get mad at me, do anything to me if it means that it'll make you stay"

"i want to grow old with you but you'll never grow old to me, i want to tell people about our complicated love story"

i still haven't said anything because i know she needs to get everything out

"i want to go on stupid holiday dates, i want to have matching pj's like all of those cringy couples, i want to stare at the stars with you by my side, i want all of those things with you baby" she sniffled,

i looked behind lexa and seen a figure walking on the sidewalk towards my house and it was Luna, the sight that she caught made her stop, she stared back into my eyes, she looked so hurt so she turned to walk away

i wanted nothing more to go after her but i couldn't leave lexa like this,

i felt lexa pull away which made me look at her

"say something y/n you haven't said anything it's making me worry"

"i still love you Lex, i want all of those with you too but i think we should take it day by day by us staying friends for now" i said and she nodded and wiped her eyes

"thank you for letting me ugly cry, i understand and i fully agree to being friends, i'm sorry about your shirt" she laughed

i looked at my shirt that was soaked like she let the whole Pacific Ocean out of her eyes making me laugh with her

"it's okay i can always change it's not like this is my only shirt" i spoke softly

"i should probably head home, it's pretty late" she said and i only nodded and pulled her into a hug

i watched as she left, Luna flooded my mind. how am i gonna explain this to her?

how am i supposed to do this with out one of the girls getting hurt?

one day at a time y/n, one day at a time..

A/N:

to be honest when i was typing the luna part "omg did she call him baby" by Beth McCarthy came on and i feel like luna related to the last bit of the song, it's so sad 😭😭

broken heart for Luna💔