Life still goes on (Lexa/you)

chapter twenty nine

"...the way you're looking at her it's obvious, who is the girl with her?" she whispered

my eyes trailed back to lexa and to my surprise costia was with her, looks like they got back together while i was gone, i'm happy for her if she's happy to say the least, she looks happier

i leaned towards marie "her name is costia the one i was telling you about" i whispered who only both of us can hear

"that's her? no offence y/n but why would lexa want her i wouldn't touch her with a six foot pole, she looks like the type to ruin a relationship" marie mumbled

i bumped shoulders with her and claimed "Marie it's in the past and honestly i'm over it as long as lexas happy" and with that i introduced Marie to everyone

a certain brown eyed female caught my eyes, as i approached her i wrapped my arms around her with no hesitation after everything that happened with lexa she was the reason why i could pull myself up again

"only god knows how much i missed you luna" i mumbled into her shoulder

"i missed you too rockstar maybe next time make a love song about me" she added making me laugh while wrapping her arms around me

i didn't notice how long we stood there in each other's arms enjoying each other's company until i heard Marie clear her throat

"oh yeah luna this is Marie" i announced as Marie stuck out her hand real quick making me raise my eyebrow "careful Marie" i elbowed her jokingly

"it's nice to meet you y/n told me a lot about you all good things but i don't understand why she'd rather be with lena and not you?" my jaw dropped

"ahem shut up Marie her name is lexa" i started pushing her away from luna gently towards over people to continue to introduce her

an hour passed by and everyone was starting to leave very slow i missed everyone but all i wanna do is sleep both Marie and i sat with everyone on the couch everyone i mean jasper monty raven clarke bellamy and echo i'm glad echo got over the whole him cheating on me with her because i was never hurt about it, i mean i did get back with lexa so quick after all that happened, i stayed quiet thinking Lexa and Luna while they all talked amongst each other and talking to Marie i'm happy she's getting along with everyone, i don't know how to feel, my feelings towards both Luna and Lexa haven't vanished i eventually have to get over both of them

i've talked to everyone in the house i mean everyone, more like i said hi to lexa and avoided all eye contact i didn't bother talking to costia, it's not that i'm jealous because i'm not it's just i can't stand to be around her
both monty and jasper introduced me to their girlfriends which was nice, i already like both of them, everyone in the group started to leave

i said bye to the last person who was chad knowing him he was probably talking to my dad in the kitchen, i'm literally so grateful for this man if it wasn't for him i wouldn't be pursuing a music career as i watched him leave i seen someone walking towards me in a distance well two figures

as they got closer we all just stood there not saying a word i kept looking between both the green and brown eyed females in front of me well isn't this something

"y/n" they said at the same time making them both look at each other quick with glares on their face so i just stood there while they stared at each other

"you know i don't wanna stand here watch you both fall in love with each other" i say while backing up into my house bringing the door to my hand

"are you dating that girl" they both spoke at the same time again making them look at each other once again, i rolled my eyes

"nope i do not want to do this right now i just got home today, you guys can both stay out here and stare into each other's eyes heck if i care fight to the death but i'm only joking" i let out while closing the door on both females signing rubbing my temples with my index fingers

"who was that?" Marie said from the stairs"

"Lexa and Luna" i stated looking towards her while she stared back with her mouth open "what?"

"OMG! A love triangle!" she let out extremely loud, i ran towards her and covered her mouth

"shut up Marie they probably haven't even left the door knowing those two they are probably arguing and i swear to god if they had heard you ima make you go out there with them" i told her while still having my hand on her mouth which she proceeded to lick my hand

"ew gross Marie what the fuck is wrong with you" i groaned while she laughed

she flicked my forehead lightly squinting her eyes at me "let's go to bed and sleep this jet lag away" she smiling walking up the stairs ahead of me

we got to my room and started putting our stuff on the ground cause there was no way in hell i'm unpacking tonight, Marie got settled on her bed my dad brought up for her, we laid in bed quietly while i was stuck in thought,

why did both Lexa and Luna want to see me, i know they asked about Marie but i thought Lexa was with Costia and Luna doesn't like me anymore right? should i have let them finish talking actually there wasn't a way for them to finish talking when they spoke at the same time,

"y/n" i heard Marie quietly i didn't answer because i know she'll continue with what she's going to say

"if it does turn into a love triangle who would you rather be with, like a pros or cons type of thing, do they both deserve your time? and if so Lexa or Luna?" she added, i know she would go on

"i don't know Marie if it does turn into some love triangle then i don't know what to do i just got home and they're both already doing that and what if in the end we all just end up alone" but that was the truth

"if you don't end up with luna i call dibs" she laughed making me laugh

"i mean if i don't have feelings for her in the end by all means you can do whatever you want, just not Lexa"

what if i give them both my time
what if i don't want to be with any of them or they end up not wanting to be with me in the end

i laid there staring into the darkness deep in thought

Lexa or luna, kept replaying in my head

A/N: word count is 1189 i did not proof read it so if there's typos i'm dumb sorry aha
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also i love woman😭😍

i'm very tired i stayed up till 3:40 knowing i have work so i slept a good 3 hours i feel like a zombie today
i've been working on this book for over three years