Nightmare

The Storm Of losing

we all know how is the feeling of watching the sunshine after a long rain.. it's pure and soft.. it give you life and hope.. the hope that even after a long darkness of course there will be a shine again..
but sometimes everything doesn't happen as we planned.
you are so obsessed with Sun, enjoying its warmness and shine but exactly when you didn't expect, the dark clouds cover all over the Sun and in a sudden there would be no shine, no hope, no warmness. it's just storm, heavy rain, lightning and...
Losing...

Wednesday

Bora woke up and took a shower, chose one of his suits and got ready.
he used his perfume and after he wore his shoes, he left his room.

Belma: Good Morning.
B: Good Morning Mom.
Elif: Good Morning Dayi
B: Good Morning canim..
he went to her, hugged and kissed her forehead.
Belma: sit. have your breakfast
B: i don't want. i have to go.
Belma: but isn't it too soon for going to company? Sit..
B: i have another work mom. i have to go.
Belma: Ok.
B: Goodbye
Belma: Goodbye. have a nice day.

He left the house and went to the laboratory.
He parked his car in front of there and got out of the car.
he took a deep breathe and entered the laboratory.

+Hi, How can i help you?
B: i want my test result.
+what's your name?
B: Doğrusoz. Bora Doğrusoz
+wait a minute Bora bey.

some minutes later the receptionist gave him the result.
+here you are.
B: thank you.

he couldn't open it. it was like his hands don't obey his brain.
he prefered to go to company first.
he drove his car as fast as he can and went to the company.

he passed the way to the company's bathroom.
P: Good morning Bora bey.
but his mind was much more busier than his brain be able to load what he is hearing.

he entered the bathroom and locked the door, looked at him self on mirror, took a deep breathe and opened the result's paper.

what if i'm really becoming a dad? *he thought*

he read the paper. wait! what?!!!

Meanwhile Ali:

He entered the company searching for Bora.
Ali: Peril, did you see Bora?
P: yes. he went to the bathroom i think.
Ali: Ok.

he passed the way to bathroom. he wanted to open the door but it was locked.
a sound of breaking came from the bathroom and someone shouted: Allah kahretsin!
and another sound of breaking.
it was Bora's sound.

Ali: Bora!! what happened?
he didn't say anything.
Ali: Hey Bora!! open this door.

a few seconds later the door opened and before Ali could ask a question Bora left the bathroom with a bleeding hand and a paper in his hand.
Ali: Bora!!!!
but he didn't hear.

Ali looked at the bathroom. the mirror was broken and some signs of blood was on it.

he came out of there looking for his mobile but he couldn't find it.
shit! i left it at home*he thought*

he saw Selin.
S: Hi Ali. Are you Ok?
Ali: i am but i don't think Bora is.
S: what do you mean? did he get the result?
Ali: he did. but i couldn't ask him anything he just left without a single word. i don't know why his reaction must be like this!! he really wanted this test to be positive but his reaction..
S: what has he done?
Ali: he broke the toilet's mirror!
S: OMG! let me call Ada.

she called her 5 times but she didn't answer.

Ada's house:
she woke up energetic, chose her best clothes to wear, a dark blue dress with white dotts on it and used her best perfume.
wore her hair in a ponytail, and talked with her little angel.

her mobile was vibrating on the desk but she didn't hear. the only thing she wanted for today, was thinking about the dreams which come true today.

the door was knocked.
her heartbeat rised and her mouth turned dry.
she took a deep breathe and opened the door.
it was him.
but something was wrong. a sign of tears was on his face.
she just said: come in.

Bora came in and sat on the sofa without saying a single word.

his hand caught Ada's attention.
A: OMG! your hand! are you ok?
B: yes.
A: let me help you.
she brought the first aid kit and took his hand, started to bandage it.

A: it's deeply injured. you must go to doctor.

he didn't say anything. he just stared at Ada's face, trying to forget everything but he couldn't.

Ada wanted to ask about result but she scared finally she said it with all of her power: did you get the result?

instead of answering her question he said: how could you do this to me?

A: what?
B: for just a day i thought i can forgive you but...
A: what are you talking about Bora?

he looked straightly at her eyes and said: wish you a nice life with your husband and your baby!

A: what are you saying Bora? i'm not married anymore did you forget?

she didn't realised what he said at first but after some seconds she said: Bora you still didn't believe this is your baby? *she tried to control herself from crying*

B: i don't.
A: what? Bora even you got the test, you don't believe me? how can you...

he took the paper out of his pocket. there were some blood drops on it. he gave it to Ada.

B: look.
A: i don't need to read it. i know it's positive.
B: read it Ada!
she read the paper.
how it can happen!
she couldn't control herself and fell down on Sofa.
she collected all her power to talk again.
A: Bora this... this must be wrong. it's.... it's impossible.
B: yeter (enough) Ada! stop playing with me. you gave me hope for about a day that i can be a father but...
A: Bora this must be wrong! allah aşkina why don't you believe me?
B: because that paper says don't believe.
A: Bora this baby is yours... it's our baby.
B: Ada.... i can't have a baby!!
A: so what is this growing in my body?
B: that's not my baby!!!

she brought the DNA test and gave it to him.
A: look! but this says it's your baby!
he read the paper but he didn't believe it!
B: maybe it's fake. you've done something like this before.
A: Bora how can you tell me this...
she literally was shouting!