If I Didn't Have You

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I forgot again I'm sorry (another update at 4 again)

Warnings:
-None

Clay's POV

~ A Few Days Later ~

My mother attached the syringe to my feeding tube with the elemental formula in it. I went to the hospital again after the second appointment I had there and the doctors prepared a elemental formula for me, which was basically liquid food with all nutrients in it, but made for me so I wouldn't get an allergic reaction.

It had been going really well so far too. Obviously I wished I would have been able to eat everything without pain, but since that wasn't an option, I was more than happy that they could do this for me.

My mother gave me all my feeding through my nose tube since this special food was extremely gross. It was really difficult to get used to the tube at first since I constantly felt it when I swallowed water and when I laid on my side, but it was already getting more normal now and I was just happy that I didn't have so many stomach aches anymore.

'Alright, that's all done!' she exclaimed. She stood up to lay the syringe and the tube feeding away, coming back after that to sit down next to me. 'Is Sapnap coming over?'

I nodded. 'He's coming with George after school.'

She smiled and turned the television on as I grabbed my phone. I had a short day of school today since I went home during lunch for now. I was getting used to my feeding and my tube, but next week I was going full days again.

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The bell rang and I stood up immediately, running to the door to greet George and Sapnap. I opened the door and looked down at George who had his arms already open. I always gave him a hug when he came to my house.

I knelt down and gave him a tight hug, giving him a kiss on his cheek. 'Hi, Georgie! How are you today?'

'Kway! Apy!'

'Are you happy today? You're always a little, happy boy!' I smiled, ruffling his hair up with a grin. He made a happy noise and hopped up and down in his wheelchair.

'Ug!'

'Another hug? Alright, you'll get another hug.'

He smiled happily and I gave him another hug, standing back up. He reached out to grab my hand and I held his hand as I looked at Sapnap. 'Hi dude, how was school?'

'Your tips really worked. I've been acting like a cocky bitch and I've ignored the others. Everyone is leaving me alone!'

'I'm so happy for you,' I smiled. 'They made fun of my tube at school and I just threw a tantrum, yelling that they would firstly have to deal with it too before judging. They've been pretty quiet now.'

'Kway, kway, kway...' George kept repeating quietly, hitting his hands softly on the table of his wheelchair. 'Kway, kway.'

I smiled softly and ruffled his hair up again, leaning in to kiss his head. 'Clay is here!'

'Kway ood uks?'

'We are going to give the ducks some food again,' I nodded. 'Sapnap took one with him!'

Sapnap grabbed it from a plastic bag in his school bag, holding it up. 'I have it here! Do you want to go or do you need to get something first?'

'How long do you want to go outside today?' I asked him. He looked down on his watch.

'A few hours? I want to be home before dinner which would be around six.'

'Okay, I'll take some of the tube feeding with me because I need to have a regular eating pattern.'

I walked inside and smiled at my mother. 'We are going to the pond again, feeding the ducks. We might also walk for a short while so I'm taking some with me. How much do I need?'

My mother grabbed it for me and prepared it, handing it to me. 'That.'

I put it in a small bag that I always had to take with me and went back to Sapnap and George. George smiled brightly when I came back and lifted his hands up.

'I can carry you a small bit, okay?' I smiled, lifting him up. Sapnap grinned and looked at me with a happy smile on his face.

'I regressed again yesterday evening, but Georgie took care of me.'

'Really? What did he do?'

'I don't know if he realised, but he started playing with me and then he wanted to cuddle with me so I couldn't leave my room. I don't regress as much as I used to, maybe because I'm not as stressed anymore?'

'You're doing so good the last few days. I know it's so difficult what you're going through, but you've been trying so hard yourself already. I'm proud of you.'

He shrugged. 'I couldn't have done it without you. I really enjoy going outside with you and George, just not at home, getting fresh air and distraction.'

'You should talk to your parents once. If they still don't want to listen, just move in with me,' I chuckled. 'No, but seriously. I'd genuinely let you stay at my place whenever you want, but maybe they just have no idea what the hell they are doing to you. They need to know.'

'I know... I just don't have the courage to. Every time I want to, I back off and walk away again. I just can't.'

'I can go with you if you want me to. I'm your friend, your best friend. I'm here to help you and I promised you I would.' I put George back down in his wheelchair and he constantly made happy sounds because he really loved being outside too.

'Do you actually want to? Because they are just such idiots and I don't want you to get involved in that...'

'But I offer this to you. I want to be there to support you and help you. I don't care if I'm involved or not, I just want to help my best friend.'

He smiled at me and sighed softly. 'Can we go today? I don't want to think about it all week...'

'Of course. We need to go to my place first when we go home for dinner because I need to get more feeding.'

'Of course, thank you so much, Clay. I love you.'

'I love you more and I love you too, Georgie.' I smiled at George who was holding my hand and he hit his arms around again from happiness.

'Lowe you!'

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