Y/n PoV
Oh my gosh being female is hard but is also very powerful but hard right now"
"OWW" I yelled . I have been having cramps all day , so I have been bed trying to find something to watch and to make it worse there's nothing to watch apart from some junk 2 star movies. I am meant to be travelling tomorrow to go to see my boyfriend premiere . I love him more than anything but I do not want to get out of this bed.
I smell so bad I need take another shower . Periods literally so bad. I order out yesterday because no way with my stomach hurting this bad was I going to cook , yet alone stand in one space. Taking medication does not help as much as everyone says it does I promise you it does not .
How I'm meant to go to my boyfriend premiere , trust me I wanted to go , think most talented person you can think of that was him and to make it worse I have been seeing his press tours , he looks so beautiful like a prince even I couldn't wait to put my arms around and him just do things with his eyes that would turn me on. But i just his smile like it would cheer me up right now.
I decided to go through Netflix and put on this French movie called Madame Claude, just seeing girls all comfortable in nude showed confidence that had in themselves. I did four romantic films I never felt need for nudity in my films but I never bashed girls who did that , they taught me confidence I wanted to have in front my boyfriend . Trust me I was still insecure I hated the stench marks on my body , I didn't like here certain parts of me where shaped but I learned each day at time to love where I can look at myself feel confident .
I felt I gained a lot of wait with my period and I didn't smell as flowery but I knew that confidence was not on just outside but I didn't feel productive mentally .
I got call interrupting my thoughts
"Hey"
"Hey beautiful wasssup" c/n said practically being really happy
"Nothing much just watch a movie while about to go through my lines" I replied
"What about you" I asked
"I think have done 15 interview today , I'm so tired and I got call today"
"About"
"You not feeling well the director asked me if I knew" he replies concerned
"It's just a headache I'm fine" I said defensive
"Okay , if you say so" he became short with me
"Anyway, so are you still wearing blue tomorrow"
"Yeah it's going to be blue"
"C/n I'm sorry for being defensive"
I knew I was in wrong "no it's cool"
I couldn't see his face "are you sure"
"Yess gosh"
"I'm sorry I'm tired I didn't mean take it out on you , I will call you tomorrow ,sleep well and I love you" he sighed
"I love you too bye" I whispered
As call ended I continued movie , I hated how I let my period control me , I can be quiet annoying he knows if I am on not to take it personality , I'm not bitch don't worry , I do t start fighting people or cussing him out , I just tend to over do things .
