despair - h.hyunjin ★

chapter 10

y/n pov

"i have no idea what you're talking about."

"ofcourse you dont, so let me tell you, that shit of a guy wont be as he used to be, and literally all you do is think of him all the damn time,do you even have a life of your own?"

"seungmin are you scolding me right now?"

"if thats how you wanna put it, then yes, yes i am. for being so blind after someone who gives no shit about you"

i didnt say anything, what could i say? he was right after all.. ugh.
i turned around and started walking

"so you're just gonna avoid me like that?" he catched up from behind

"no, we're getting late"

this time he didnt say anything and just walked with me, he probably is tired of me being like this, oh well-

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after i got done with tutoring, i said bye to seungmin and left for home
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the moment i reached my mom told me she'll be out for a week or so, I wasn't surprised as it was pretty usual

"take care sweetie"

"you too, mom. and dont stress out on work alot"

she smiled and left, i went to my room

i was planning on watching the tv, but I couldn't find the remote for it, because of course, it has to be lost when you need it

so i started looking for it as it should be around somewhere, as i was looking for it i found something big, dusted with dirt behind my bed, i took it out

ahh its been so long since played this, it was a guitar bag, with my guitar that i havent played in about a year, i cleaned it a bit, and then tried playing it

i wanted to start with one of my favourite songs, so i started playing it on the guitar, i did forget a few of the strings and all, but after about a hour i got used to it again, and finally i opened the song lyrics in my phone and started singing

(im not including a song, yall can decide your favourite song and imagine it 😼)

ah it felt good to play it after so long.. its been a while, i sigh

i went to the mirror, and i don't know why i started remembering all what seungmin said again.. i dont really have a life of my own do i? ugh.

i took out my phone and saw a post of hyunjin, with.. sung hee? they had dinner together? or rather... a date..?

my blood started boiling, i clicked off and threw my phone accross the bed and went to the bathroom, as much as i try i still just keep thinking about him, why cant he be like how he used to be? how we used to text and laugh everyday? why did all of this happen? do i have even a little importance in his life anymore.. my head is just filled with all these thoughts, i washed my face and went back in, then i looked at my phone, i had a text from seungmin

"what are you doing?"

"nothing much, you?"

"im bored wanna call?"

"sure"

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"hello?"

"hey"

"oh hey, are you working?"

"yeah, it gets really tiring"