despair - h.hyunjin ★

chapter 27

y/n pov

"hyunjin" i said, finally looking her in the eyes.

"oh.. sure what is it?"

"so um.. remember a few days ago i told you about him? well, i made up my mind. i want to cancel it"

"oh thats okay, ill see when i can schedule our next meeting and let them know. thanks for telling me" she smiled,

"no actually- can we just go tomorrow?- or are you busy?"

"well we cant just go and be like oh let's cancel a very important deal you know? i have to talk to his parents and make up for a meeting"

dang it. "why does it matter when we're just gonna cancel it anyway.." i said a little below my voice, ugh i really wanted it to be tomorrow.

"okay then anything else?"

"its fine get some rest" i said, she nodded and we both went into our rooms
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i sighed as i threw myself on the bed, i was still so mad, why do still even care. its soon going to end completely anyway. and i bet he wouldn't even care.

ugh.. i seriously need to stop thinking about all this. i quickly went up and put on the tv, a few minutes later a maid came in and called me up for dinner, so i put off the show i was watching and went down.

i saw mom sitting on the table, i went and sat beside her and started eating.

"so how is everything else going?" she asked while taking a bite from her food since it got too quite

"hm? like?"

"school and all, any other things you've been doing?"

"oh school is going fine.. and not really i just spend my time here and there doing this and that"

"well what i meant to say was, do you have friends you can hang out with? you're always alone everytime i see you"

"you barely ever see me mom" then i realised, i shouldn't have said that- her face slightly dropped for a second, but then she quickly laughed it off by saying "thats true"

"i mean i do have seungmin, i dont think anyone can be a better friend than him"

she nodded, "yah, you're not mad at me right?"

"what? no, why would i be"

"because i put you into all this, you were supposed to be enjoying your life and have alot of friends, you were supposed to go to karaoke and things like that and make so many school memories, but you already end school soon. and its all my fault" she said with a dull face, even if we're rich shes still a mom, and so she would want her daughter to live the best life possible. i kinda feel bad for lying to her all these years, now she's blaming it all on herself

"mommm~!" i bugged her with my elbow, "who told you i had a bad time? and its not like ill die after school ends you know, i can still make alot of memories. so its not your fault at all! like dont you know how good it is when you can buy anything you like because of your hardworking mom? im not mad and i still love you like i did, you're like the best mom i could ever get" i said and smiled, she didn't say anything and smiled back, i nodded and we started eating again