No matter what

Attempt-7

I dig my face deeper into the crook of Alex's neck and pretend to be asleep while being carried by Alex

" Heather"

the way my name rolls on his tongue makes me weak...oh god, but after yesterday night there is no way I can face him right now.

Alex tries to move his neck to look at me but stops not able to because of my head blocking him to do so

"I think she fell asleep, she was crying a lot" Alex sighs while rubbing my back, "I don't really care, I was trying to find you," Leo says back in a relaxed tone while Alex grunted at his coldness, " what" Alex says.

" There is a school competition coming up, it's a football team game, the winning team gets a reward of about a thousand dollars for each player, and exemption from classwork and homework for two weeks, what do you think?"

Leo says folding his arms across his chest, " that sounds great, we would have to make our team tho, who is it going to be?" Alex questions. " you, me, that blond boy joseph, Steph since she is very good in sports, she does boxing, Ash, she's also good, she's in the martial arts program, and she does track too. Everyone in this house is athletic...besides them we can get some of our friends to join in and it would be perfect" Leo says back.

I'm also athletic....... I also wanna be in it...

" That sounds good, but why are you doing this? your not the type to take part in such things. is a girl you like on the opposite team? or you wanna make her join your team?" Alex says smirking with a teasing voice. " a woman who can play sports is hot, but that isn't why... if I join this stupid shit then I don't have to do school work for a while and I will be exempt for some subjects too, so why the fuck not"

....a girl....he likes girls who are athletic...he never speaks his type...women who play sports are hot huh...hmmm...

" alright tell the others about them I'll catch you in a bit," Alex says walking past him, while Leo nods.

Alex walks out of the house and walks into his house going up to his room slowly, as soon as he shut his room door behind him I jump off his arms making him startled

" oh god Heather" he looks at me I look at him and rub all the wetness off my face and smile cheekily

"im going to school" I smile turning around, but stop when Alex pulls the back of my shirt making my back yank on his chest, he lowers his head on my shoulder facing me, I turn my face looking at him, " what" I question him

" no." he says in a serious tone, I frown at the sudden rejection that I dont know what its pointed towards, I tilt my head and question him " huh?" his face starts to change into a more serious one

"I know you were not asleep, and pretend to be when Leo came in. I know you heard about the football competition, and the answer for that is no." he protests, I fold my hands across my chest and turn my whole body towards him

" your thinking dumb!" I look at him now getting mad, " I hope I am" he says in a hopeful tone

" your health doesn't allow you to move much, which is why you cant do harsh sports like football, if you move too much or get breathless your heart will start to become weaker, and I know you already know this, but you seem to forget yourself for someone plenty of times" he speaks out looking down at me

I grip my hands into a fist and bite my inner cheek hard, " not like I wanted this, if I could do what other normal kids can do, then it wouldn't be a problem, I know my body is weak, especially this heart. You don't have to tell me what to do." I turn my head to walk out the door when he grabs my wrist and pulls me, he brings his face down, kneeling to have his face at the same height as mine

"I know you didn't want this, you are unique the way you are, even if you could do such sports imagine how hurt you would get, which is never okay" he cups both of my cheeks smiling, " don't worry, we will do a competition as well, fuck sports, we will do a painting competition, what you say?"

I like the idea of that, but that won't help me get close to Leo, I want Leo to recognize me in a good way, he finds paintings boring he would never do it.

I put on a fake smile to please Alex for the effort he's putting in to make me feel better and nod silently

" Heather why were you crying so much. was it Leo?" he looks down at me, I shake my head silently " what is it then, you said you didn't want to go to school, is someone bothering you?"

he questioned in a more serious voice, I sigh and shake my head

it's true that I didn't want to go to school because I didn't want to see Leo, so I was scared but after hearing about the competition it was a way for him to recognize me finally, but now I can't do that either..how will I hide from Alex and do this...I have to find a way without him knowing

I look up at him " I'm fine" I say with a forceful smile

his eyes could tell he doesn't believe me, he sighs and goes to grab my hand but I turn and speed walk out of his room.

I didn't want to deal with it any longer, I know he wants the best for me and comfort me no matter what, but sometimes some things can just not be helped and this is one of them