𝙱𝚞𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙷𝚘𝚙𝚎~𝙹𝚞𝚍𝚎 𝙱𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚑𝚊𝚖

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚃𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚎

Translations:

French: maman je pars maintenant, je serai de retour avant 23h alors ne t'inquiète pas. Je t'aime

English: mom i'm leaving now, i'll be back before 11pm so don't worry. Love you

Gabriela's POV:

I'm a very private person, and I'd like to say that no one really knows the real Gabriela. They only know the version I created to show everyone. It's like every time someone is close to finally getting to know me, I panic and just distance myself. I know it's unhealthy and also unfair to both the other person and me, but it's just that ever since my father, left I've been feeling like a burden to everyone. It's like if my own father doesn't want me, who would? I don't think I've ever told anyone how I really felt or just took a minute to acknowledge my feelings, because I've been running away from my feelings and when I do face them they're just overwhelming and unfamiliar even though I feel like this everyday.

Every time I want to cry or just want to disappear from everyone I go to a cliff near my house, and I just bawl my eyes out and scream if I want to. It's my secret place and I just love being here. Today is weirder than all the other days, suicidal thoughts have been on my mind a lot more lately and today they're stronger.

I just don't care anymore. I no longer want to live. I'm no longer going to have to put up with this pain. I cry as I feel something inside of me relax. I'm going to be rescued. I walk over to the cliff edge and look down. It will be painless. I will save myself from everything; I am going to end these demons inside me. I take one last look at the cliff edge.

That's when I see him.

Everything inside me freezes in fear. He knows, but the look in his eyes tell me otherwise. Curiosity.

"What are you doing here?" Jude asks. I shiver at his hard gaze.

He just ruined my chance to make peace with myself. Why is he even here?

"What are you doing here?" I throwback. He narrows his eyes at me. I scoff and turn back around and stare back down at the river below. I would be at peace by now.

"I was just taking a walk" Jude replies with curiosity still on his face

"Oh cool" I respond trying to wipe my tears away

But it is too late. He already noticed.

"Are you okay? You were crying when I got here" he asks sounding concerned

"Yeah just having a stressful day, that's all. I'll be okay eventually" I say, showing a weak smile on my face

"Wanna talk about it?" He asks as he seats down

"No it's okay" I said as I copy his actions

There is a silence between the two of us. And all that can be heard is the sound of the wind hitting the water.

"How do you know about this place?" I ask as I break the silence

"I used to run here before I moved to Dortmund, so this is the first time I'm here after moving. What about you?"

"I found this place after an incident 4 years ago, and it's just been my safe place ever since then" I say trying to hold back tears