𝙱𝚞𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙷𝚘𝚙𝚎~𝙹𝚞𝚍𝚎 𝙱𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚑𝚊𝚖

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙵𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚎𝚗

Author's POV:

Jude and Gabby were out on a date for his birthday. And as they were eating, well as Jude was eating, Gabby stared at the family that was seated on the table next to them and they were celebrating their dad's birthday.

She just couldn't help but feel jealous because the little girl and her dad reminded her, of her and her father, she didn't like that she was thinking about him. This was supposed to be a happy day for her, but just the thought of him ruined her day. She felt like he robbed her from having a normal childhood and she resents him for that. It's just not a simple matter for her, and it never will be. Maybe one day it will, but for now it doesn't feel like it.

"You look a bit out of it, what's the matter?" Jude asks Gabby, bringing her back to reality

"I just have a lot on my mind, but it's not that important so don't worry "

Jude could tell that something was really bothering her, but it seemed like she just didn't want to talk about it so he just decides to change the subject.

"Wanna know what's so weird?" Jude asks

"What?"

"A year ago, if someone had told me that you would mean a lot to me like you do now, I wouldn't have believed them"

"Why? We were getting very close then"

"Yeah but I just didn't think I'd ever have a chance with you, you were this shy but outgoing girl and I don't know, I just never imagined me being your type"

"So...what did you think was my type?"

"I don't know, just guys who don't play football"

"You're right, I don't really go for athletes. If I'm being honest, you are actually the first athlete I've ever found attractive"

Jude lets out a soft laugh before saying anything, "Well I'm very honoured"

The rest of the night they just enjoy each other's company and it feels as though time just stops when they are together.

"Oh my days, I'm actually so tired. I don't think I've had this much fun in a while" Gabby says as they make their way into her house.

The smile on her face quickly disappears after she sees who her mom is talking to in the living room.

This was the last thing she was expecting to see today. Her mom seating in the living room with her ex boyfriend and his mom.

Gabby's mom and Kai's mom are very close, and their dream was always that their children would go out together. Till this day, they aren't aware of the fact that their kids dated and even when they broke up, none of them told their moms what really happened between the two.

"Speaking of the devil, here she is" Gabby's mom says teasing her daughter.

"Happy birthday Jude" Gabby's mother says as she hugs him

"Thank you." Jude says with a warm smile on his face while returning the hug.

"Long time no see" Gabby excitedly says before giving Kai's mom a hug.

She wanted to ignore Kai's existence, but she knew that her mom and "aunt" would know something was off and ask her what it was, so she just greets him before she basically sprints up the stairs.

She and Jude were both visibly uncomfortable, especially Gabby. She hadn't seen or heard from him since the night things ended between the two of them, and apart from the weird and uncomfortable messages he leaves under her posts with different accounts, they hadn't really had any contact with each other.

A few days later...

Gabby's POV:

The past couple of days I've been in this never ending suffocating loop. It's just turning me into this horrible person, my emotions are getting the best of me and I'm taking out all my anger to the people i love the most. I genuinely just feel like the worst human being there is, mom and I have been arguing a lot over stupid stuff because of me and that's the same thing with Jude. I suddenly have been doubting everything im our relationship.

I just don't know how I feel having a healthy relationship because growing up I never really had a perfect example of that. When I got into my relationship with Kai I realized how the toxicity I'd always "dreamt" about wasn't healthy at all but I put up with it because I convinced myself to feel "safe" even though it was actually the opposite.

Whenever Jude is nice to me, I tend to feel very weird because it's just not something I'm used to, I'm trying to get used to it though.

I've basically pushed everyone away and I can see how frustrating it is for them, it's frustrating for me too but more importantly it's unfair to them.

I just don't think anyone notices just how bad I'm doing. I don't think anyone ever has and I don't think anyone ever will. I'm practically drowning in my thoughts, except I can see everyone else around me breathing.