𝙱𝚞𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙷𝚘𝚙𝚎~𝙹𝚞𝚍𝚎 𝙱𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚑𝚊𝚖

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚃𝚠𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚢♡

Jude's POV:

She just barely managed to let out one of the worst things anyone could hear before falling asleep. The only thing keeping me from ending up in jail right now was her breathing.

She needs me right now, so I stay next to her.

There was a small piece, like a really small piece of me that wanted to wake her up and beg her for an explanation, the rest of me had accepted her words.

I couldn't help but think to myself how I didn't see it. All the signs were right there. She has been screaming for help this whole time and I didn't notice.

I feel angry and hopeless. I also feel guilty, I wasn't there to protect her when she needed me the most. I should've done more to protect her. I feel like I've failed her. I broke my promise to always protect her.

I can't fall asleep because I want to be there for her if she wakes up during the middle of the night. I have been pacing around her room for what feels like a century.

I've basically lost track of time. It feels like I just heard those words a minute ago, they feel so fresh to my mind that no matter how much I try to get them out of my head I can't.

I look at Gabby who is sleeping peacefully on her bed, and I can't help but think why would anyone want to hurt a sweet person like her? She doesn't deserve it. No one does.

She has been asleep for a few hours, and she hasn't woken up, so I let myself fall asleep too. I make sure she is really okay before I go to bed. It tales me a while to fall asleep because I can't get Gabby's words out of my head, but after a while I eventually fall asleep.

I fall asleep praying to God Gabby will be okay. It is really the only thing I can do right now.

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Short chapter because I'm so tired right now, so I'll probably end up editing his point of view later or something idk💀

But today's Jude birthday!! Still can't believe he's 19, it feels like yesterday when he had just turned 18 and playing in the euros. Where did the time go?!?