Dangerous Muse (ASHLEY 10) ☑

Chapter 17

|Chapter|17|Missed|

Hindi ako nakapalag nang marahas na inalis ni Jeremiah ang kamay ni Isaah na siyang nakahawak sa akin, saka ako hinila palabas ng venue. His cousins even stood up and tried to calm him down, but he ignored them. We have several eyes on us. 

I watched his broad back frame and let him take me to wherever he want. While staring, I can't help but notice the changes in him. He got more manlier than the last time, that's for sure. His voice became more thick. He completely developed his appearance into something you can hardly ignore. That you will notice every single detail in him, and that in every new features you'll discover, you'll want to see more.

But, I'm not certain if it's right to compare the him before and this man in front of me right now. I never doubted his intentions, I always think that he's an angel, he's a rare soul that came to save me from evilness that keeps me drowning. Was I wrong? Did I let him pass my gate that easily? Have I missed some signs?

Napakilala ko siya kila Daddy at Mommy noon, even to my brothers. Does it mean he really played his role right? That even my father didn't notice? Pero impossible. Hindi tanga ang Daddy ko, and my brothers.... my mother. Alam ba ito lahat ni Lola Purple? Why didn't she tell me??

Pero kahit na umupo ako ngayon at isipin lang ang lahat na nangyari noon, wala akong makitang bakas ng kasamaan sa kaniya. He's the most genuine person I know. The most clean and pure. My innocent Jeremiah. Nagkamali ba talaga ako?

But everyone can fake their personality. I think of him as that kind of person, because he only showed me positive attitudes. Is that it?

Talaga bang... ginawa niya lang ang lahat ng mga iyon? I don't know what exactly the truth is, but I am now calculating several of his possible reasons. Maybe, his family didn't really accepted their defeat all this time, maybe we struck a great damage to their pride and they used him to lure me, to make me fall in love with him, and then... break me.

Napasinghap ako nang naramdaman ko ang paninikip ng aking dibdib. Hindi ako iyakin, pero ramdam ko ang kagustuhang makawala ng aking luha mula sa aking mga mata. He fooled me then?

Dahil sa naiisip ay wala sa sariling napahinto ako sa paglalakad, he also stopped walking. Magkasalubong na kilay niya akong hinarap, pero kaagad din iyong nawala nang tuluyan na niyang nakita ang mukha ko. Ayaw kong ipakita sa kaniya na mahina ako, but this is how I am when I am with him... vulnerable and too transparent.

"What's wrong-"

"Let me go." Malamig kong putol sa sasabihin niya.

He clenched his jaw as he looked away. Hindi niya ginawa ang sinabi ko.

"No, we need to talk." Mariin din niyang sabi.

Tinitigan ko siya, I can only see his side profile, and I can't help but appreciate how perfect his jaw is, and how proud his nose from my view.

"W-we have nothing to talk about. If you're going to bring back-"

He harshly faced me, this time, his face is red. His breathing is rapid and heavy. Kumikinang narin ang kaniyang mga mata. Napa-iwas ako ng tingin, the emotions on his eyes pains me...

"Yes we do, marami tayong dapat pag-usapan, Muse." Nagtitimpi niyang saad.

Binitawan niya na ako, napapikit ako ng kaagad akong nakaramdam nang pangungulila. He brushed his hair using his long fingers, while letting out a few heavy sighs. I just stood and waited for his next words.

Pwedeng-pwede ko siyang patumbahin kanina pa para makaalis na ako. But I can't do that... even after knowing all the new shits that are possibly true. Hindi ko parin kaya.