love foolish | (m.sn x reader)

teaser.

warning // may cause pain lol.

"it was all a dream.."

i looked behind me, i didn't know what to do. i was lost beyond control.

i love her.

her voice. her laugh. her smile. everything. she was my-- she IS my everything.

she was the sole reason of every inch of my being.

-but why am i with another woman?

under the sheets i lay, another woman who i probably just met huddled up beside me, warm and naked. chest slowly rising and falling, and no matter how endearing it must feel to have a living, breathing and pretty lady right beside me who probably had just been fcked senseless by me while we were drunk.

the feeling wasn't the same as when as when i was with Y/N.

thoughts of when i slept beside the girl had drifted in my mind. the sleeping girl was definitely clingy, she had been taking up most of the space since she was actually laying on top of me as her head was on my chest and her legs entangled with mine with both her hands placed on my torso. she was a little loud with her tired but soft snores, and yawned most of the time but it was a much more.. comfortable situation. nothing sensual happened, the girl had just fallen asleep beside me after a long and tiring day. she just lay there huddled so close, sleeping. if it were another person i'd be annoyed as they were invading my space already, as what i would feel right now if the lady sleeping beside me would attempt to cuddle too close to me like how Y/N used to do--

.. used to do.

a sad smile rested on my face as memories of the mentioned girl came across my mind.

i love her. i love her more than anything.

and loving her more than myself had brought me to the decision of letting her go. love had made me both wise and foolish. loving her was the most best and foolish thing i'd have ever done, while losing her was the most worst but wisest thing i've ever witnessed.

it hurts- it hurts.