Hidden ||Jasper Hale||

Twenty Two : Duet and Confessions

I wake up. I didn't have a nightmare. Jasper is still here with me, his arms are wrapped around me and I turn to face him.

"Mornin' darlin'." He says.

"Mornin' Jaz." I say.

He kisses me and I kiss him back. I can't believe the love of my life is back here with me.

"What do you want to do today?" Jasper asks.

"Stay with you, and never let you leave." I say.

"I won't leave darlin' I promise." Jasper says.

We lay there and Jasper starts asking me questions.

"So, what did you do without me?" Jasper asks.

"N-nothing much." I lie.

"Your heartbeat increased. You're lying." Jasper says.

I sigh. "It's a long story." I say.

"I have time." Jasper says.

"Well, I was sad at first, I thought you would come back for me within a week or two, but my week 3, I was hopeless. Then, you came for my birthday and I found out about my adoption and stuff. A month after that, I started getting unhealthy......." I drift off.

"Cam, what do you mean, unhealthy?" Jasper asks.

"Well I uh, drank some things that I shouldn't have and I didn't eat much. I was getting drunk 3 times a week." I look down, ashamed.

"Baby, don't feel ashamed. You're ok now." Jasper says.

"Then, I went to your house and found that disc that you made. I listened to it multiple times and I started eating better, I only got drunk one time a week. I even recorded my own verse." I say. "Then Bella invited me to go cliff jumping, and that's it."

"Cameron, I'm so sorry. That is all my fault. I just wanted to feel safer around you. I didn't want the fear to just snap and bite your neck." Jasper says.

"I understand Jaz." I say.

"Where is the stuff that you drank?" Jasper asks.

"U-under the bed." I say.

Jasper takes all of the bottles out from under the bed. 20 empty vodkas and 50 empty beers.

Jasper puts it all in a bag and puts it in the corner.

"Anything else?" He asks.

"I have a uhh. Thing behind that picture frame."

Jasper looks behind the frame and there I are two empty glasses of sunset rum. 85.5% alcohol. Very strong, one sip can make you drunk, I usually took 3 sips.

"Darlin' these are really strong." Jasper says. He looks at me worriedly.

"I'm sorry Jasper." I say. Jasper hugs me.

"You can get through this." Jasper says. "I know you can."

Jasper sits down on the bed and sees the DVD player.

"Did you know that my song has karaoke mode? It's just the beat." Jasper says.

"Really?" I ask. "That's cool."

Jasper turns it on and starts singing.

"I'm writing you this message just so I can say that I love you.
I had to let you know that everything about me was you, yeah.
I think it's time for me to leave, but I'll never leave you.
I just looked at your pictures, so the last thing I did was see you."

I start singing, "I'm 18, my anxiety's eating me alive.
I'm fightin' with myself and my sobriety every night.
And last time I couldn't barely open up my eyes, I apologize."

He sings again. "I'm not gonna lie and tell you it's alright, it's alright.
You're gonna cry and, baby, that's alright, it's alright.
I wrote you this song to keep when I'm gone
If you ever feel alone.
You're gonna cry and, baby, that's alright, it's alright."

We both look at each other and smile.

"I love you darlin'." Jasper says.

"I love you too." I say.

For the rest of the day, we hang out and go for a walk.