Kat's (pov)
what should i do? it's already 5 pm pero hindi parin ako nakakapagdecide if pupunta ba ako sa party with minty, kanina pa ako palakad lakad sa sala ng condo ko. I'm worrying because, first of all i haven't been to any kind of party yet and lastly, Maraming tao ang makakasama ko do'n i'm sure of it.
I don't want anything to happen to me in front of a lot of people, especially Minty. I have a panic attack when there are a lot of people around me kaya nga nung sinabi niya sa 'kin na isasama niya ako ay bigla nalang akong kinabahan.
Muntik na 'kong mapatalon sa gulat nang bigla nalang mag vibrate ang phone ko, actually kanina pa 'yan umoopen dahil sa maraming nagnonotify. Kaagad ko itong nilapitan at napasapo nalang ako sa aking noo dahil galing lahat 'yon kay Minty. She flood me with messages.
"Rina!" then again, i was startled when luna called me from behind.
"A-Ang bilis mo namang bumalik" tanong ko rito at humarap na sakaniya ng diretso habang hawak parin ang phone ko, kanina pa siya nakatambay dito sa condo unit ko kase raw sawa na siya sa atmosphere ng company nila.
"what's with your face?" nagtaka ako sa sinambit niya
"huh?"
kaagad niya akong nilapitan na parang inoobserbahan pa "kanina kapa wala sa sarili, napansin ko lang."
I bit my lower lip, should i tell her kung bakit ako nagkakaganito? besides, she knew my case.
Napahinga ako nang malalim bago muling magsalita "I can't decide kase.."
"bakit? ano bang meron?" she ask confused
"Minty and i were supposed to go to a party tonight but you know.." maikling paliwanag ko
Matagal bago siya nakasagot dahil pinag-isipan niya pa ata kung ano ba 'yung pinupunto ko
"you can't come, rina. Hindi ka naman niya mapipilit"
"but she needs me there.."
"why are you being like this? mas inuuna mo pang isipin ang kapakanan ng iba instead sa sarili mo" she's right but i can't help it
"she's my responsibility and it's my job na samahan siya anytime, anywhere."
"Tao ka bes, hindi ka iwant tandaan mo 'yan" i rolled my eyes dahil nagagawa niya pa talagang magbiro
"Just kidding, pero seryoso. She is only your boss not your responsibility at all"
"I'm working for her, luna!"
"alam mo, feeling ko talaga.." pagputol niya kaya agad kong nabaling ang buong atensyon ko sakaniya, ano bang feeling niya?
I scoffed "what?"
"I just noticed na you're always keeping your eyes on her, i mean. Grabe ka kung makabantay sakaniya kulang nalang lamunin mo" what? ano bang alam niya? Am i too obvious?
"because i'm her s-secretary."
she shook her head "secretary paba 'yong pati pakikipag-date niya with someone kailangan kasama ka?"
"you're being malicious.."
"I'm your friend kat, sister..and nagwoworry lang naman ako sa 'yo, i don't want to see you hurting katulad nalang ng ginawa sa 'yo nung ex mo"
Bakit ba lahat nalang ng bagay pinagdudugtong niya? ano namang kinalaman ng past ko e tungkol lang naman sa party kanina topic namin?
"I'll try!" biglaang sabi ko, kase narealized kong simula nung kapag nasa danger ako nandiyan lagi si minty. I don't know why but i feel secured when i'm with her so i will face my fear.
