Dear Future Boyfriend

Chapter 24

"How are you?"

She smiled "I'm good! Ghad. I miss you so much, Rana. Ang tagal pa ng dalawang linggo"

"Mabilis lang naman ang araw and I miss you too."

"I guess its already evening diyan? Hay. Nakakainis nga dahil busy din si Trevor kaya wala akong mayaya lumabas"

"Patapos na din naman ang OJT nila nyan. Mas okay talaga na huwag muna kayo mag kita dahil araw araw naman kayo mag kasama" I chuckled.

Totoo naman. Halos mag kasama sila araw araw. Hindi sila mapag hiwalay.

"Wala din si Asher. Kahit napaka bugnutin non ay namimiss ko na siya"

I bit my lower lips. Ito naman talaga ang itinawag ko kay Penelope. Gusto kong malaman kung bakit nandito ang pinsan niya.

"Where is he?"

"Nasa belgium si Asher ngayon, Rana. Ipinatawag sya ng daddy niya. We didn't hear anything from him. I keep sending him messages pero hindi nya ako nirereplayan."

Belgium? Malapit lang sa Paris iyon. I think 1.5 hours by train. So wala talaga syang pinunta dito kung hindi ako.

"I'll hung up the call na Rana. I'll call you later nalang. I love you! Don't forget my pasalubong when you get home okay? Take care!"

I lay in my bed after I called Rana. Iniisip ko pa if I should call Kiro. This past few weeks was really a roller coaster ride for me. Asher didn't stop coming sa shop even after what happend to them.

Iniisip ko kung sasabihin ko ba kay Kiyo na nandito si Asher.

"Rana, dinner is ready" Andrew scream.

"Coming"

Things was okay naman between Andrew and me. I know concern lang naman sya dahil nakikita niya na nahihirapan ako sa situation namin ni Asher.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang hindi maintindihan ni Asher, kahit ilang beses ko siyang ipagtabuyan hindi pa din sya umaalis.

"Si Adi?"

"Nauna na siyang kumain. May gagawin pa daw kasi sya"

Kahit mag kasama kaming tatlo ay madalang lang kaming mag sabay sa hapagkainan.

Bigla kong namiss sila mommy dahil lagi kaming sabay sabay na kumain kapag nandyan sila ni daddy.

Kumakain din kaya ng maayos si Liam? Maarte sa pagkain ang isang iyon kaya kapag wala sila daddy ay inuutusan niya akong mag luto.

"Penny of your thoughts?"

I smiled. "Sa tingin mo ba dapat kong sabihin kay Kiyo ang mga nangyayari saakin dito?"

Andrew stared at me and answered "Yes, because he deserve to know that Rana. He's your boyfriend. I think hindi naman nya ma mi-misunderstand dahil sa una palang ay hindi mo naman kasalanan kung bakit nandito si Asher"

"Hindi na ako naka tulog ng maayos simula ng makita ko si Asher dito. Parang araw araw ay sinasakal ako"

He gently tap my shoulder. "I understand you. Some people really have a hard time accepting the truth kahit ilang beses mo pang sabihin sakanila and I think that's the case kay Asher."

I'm grateful because I have someone I can talk to when things get hard. Pakiramdam ko ay nagkaroon ako ng isa pang kuya.

"Thank you, Andrew. For everything. I'm really glad I met you"

He smiled. "You can always run to me when things get hard or something is bothering you. I got you"

"How are you?"

I smiled. "Have you eaten?"

He take a sigh. "Not yet. It was a hectic day today"

"Are you tired? I wish I can hug you"

"A hug from you will ease all this"

"Saglit nalang, Kiyo. I'm coming home"

He smiled. That smile is my everything. Sobrang genuine ng ngiti ni Kiyo.

"Is there something wrong, Rana? You see I've been waiting for you to say something because I know something was bothering you in the pass few days but I didn't asked you dahil hinihintay ko na ikaw mismo ang magsabi."

"Are you okay? Is everything okay?"

I bit my lower lips.

"Asher is here"

"What?"

I take a deep breath and looked straight in his eyes. Kahit sa cellphone lang kami mag kausap kay titig na titig ako sakanya.

"I'm sorry for lying, ayoko lang na ma misunderstand mo. I don't know why he's here but Asher is staying here for almost 3 weeks na and he kept coming sa resto"

"He's bothering you?"

I nod my head.

"You shouldn't keep that from me, Rana."

"I know and I'm sorry"

"Kaya ba sobrang cold mo saakin this past few days? It was because of him?"

"No, na gu-guilty lang ako at hindi ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin sa iyo because of what happend last time, Kiyo. Ayoko na mag isip ka"

"You know he likes you, right?"

I looked away "I know but I like you"

"Let's talk about it when you get home. I'm not mad okay. I trust you, Rana"

"Stop bothering me please, Asher. I'm begging you"

He's looking at me. Or should I say staring at me.

"Do you hate me that much?"

Umiling ako "Hindi ganon. Pero hindi kasi tama, Asher. May boyfriend ako at ayoko na ma mis interpret nya ulit kung bakit mo ako pinupuntahan dito."

He smirked. "Just break up with him. Ako naman ang gusto mo hindi ba?"

"Bakit ba napaka sarado ang isip mo, Asher? Hindi ganyan ang mag mahal. Hindi pinipilit ang pagmamahal, Asher."

He held my hand. "You are my first love, Rana and I can't look at the other girls like how I look at you right now. Ikaw ang gusto ko and I'll do everything para mapunta ka saakin kahit mag mukha akong tanga. I can't unlove you"

"Sa tingin mo ba masaya ako sa ginawa mo ngayon? Kahit anong gawin mo hindi ako pupunta sayo dahil hindi ito ang tama. Please, I kneel if you want me too. Tigilan mo lang ako"

I can see pain in his eyes but I can't do anything about it. I want to save him before its too late.

Hindi na siya ang Asher na nakilala ko, o kilala ko ba talaga siya?

"I hate to see you acting this way, Asher. Hindi ka ganito"

Ayokong mag bitaw ng masasakit na salita.

He looked away, trying to hold his tear.
"It’s hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen. But it’s even harder to give up when you know it’s everything you want." He replied.

"I'm really sorry" I'm crying. It breaks my heart doing this but this is the right thing to do.

"Your eyes that have been my sun, it pains to see them shining for another."

I hug him for one last time and whispher

"Somewhere, maybe you can find someone who can make your heart beat again and I really hope that time will come. For everyday that you pine for my love, and for every single time I reject you, you'll start to die inside. That throbbing pain has slowly turned into numbing emptiness and eventually you'll forget about me"